Not a trait anyone wants to have. Whenever i see people doing good things or succeeding, it makes me very angry, like to the point my blood boils. I don’t understand why I’m like this and I don’t want to be. Obviously I’d never sabotage anyone or throw around hate just because of this jealousy, I try to suppress these feelings and congratulate the person but it really is affecting me. I gatekeep any good opportunities i find to myself but on the rare occasion i tell someone, they end up spreading it explicitly after i told them not to which makes me gatekeep even more. Why am i this negative and how can i overcome this?
Like it could be anything. If someone has started revision or exercising or is allowed to go out to nice
places i literally can’t look at my phone no more. I thought if i deleted social media this issue would be solved but i guess not.