Hi Chelsea , don't think like that , take me as your best friend alright
The reason you feel alone with no friends is that you are unique ok? , you mostly don't fit in with others (like me!) I used to have less to no friends but now I am different , I befriend those who are like me , unique , avoided , teased
I really understand your emotions Chelsea but remember being alone is better than fake friends around you , so chin up and lead your life , all those relationships which you seek will follow you.