am I bad person/friend for this?Watch
Not at all! It was a nice thought but if you had to cancel for you thats what you had to do. Your mental health should come first. And its good that youre planning on paying them back
The general concept of going appealed to me at first but I just did it so impulsively when I really shouldn't have. I'm in my early 20's so I feel quite stupid having a problem like this but I want to get in a good place mentally and socially and I just don't think this will help me. Do you think it's reasonable considering I'm going to pay them back once I decide? My family members don't understand as they could never fathom that I would have issues like this, they just think I'm overreacting.
Absolutely! If youre still deciding though maybe tell your friends that you wouldnt feel comfortable going anymore and see what they say. If they are good friends they should listen to you and be understanding, rather than trying to force you to go. And having this kind of problem isnt stupid at all i promise. Theres lots of people that struggle with this kind of thing. I hope everything works out and that youre doing okay mentally