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I have ended up having to go to university this year. I don't feel excited at all. I feel full of anxiety and nervous to death. It was my only option as I had to go through Clearing and I really did not want to go to uni at all. It does make it better that I am not moving away so I do have a happy and stable family life to come home to. Still, my fears won't go away and I have even ended up having second thoughts about whether my course is what I really want to do. How do I get myself out of this mess I caused? I am starting on Tuesday as I missed the first few weeks and am dreading everything, at the moment, mostly catching up on the first weeks that I missed. Also, this isn't just first time nerves which everyone experiences. I feel much much low and worse than that.
I’ve got to be completely honest, when reading your post, it sounds like you’ve answered your own question.
You’ve forced yourself to do something you don’t want to do, you didn’t want to go to uni and you didn’t really want to do this course by the sounds of it through clearing. Granted you’re near home so that’s something that’s making you feel slightly better but it’s clearly not over-weighing all the negatives.
Ask yourself, what would be best right now, not going to uni and waiting a year or forcing yourself to do something you don’t want too whilst getting in debt? The only person that needs to feel satisfied and happy right now is you. Don’t force yourself to do something because you feel like you’re wasting a year as you could go and get some work experience or something and actually apply to something you will feel happy doing.
We all get anxious at the start of uni but this to me sounds like you’re really don’t want to do it but you’re forcing yourself to and that’s not healthy. Listen to your mind and your heart and do what’s best for you right now!
i know how u feel bud. im in second year of this course and its ******** - boring as hell. only reason im doing it is so i dont disappoint my parents and that 'im doing something'. probably just gonna live off rent for the rest of my life. only thing i can suggest is listen to some inspirational batman music or soemthing lol.