i’ve always been active and always enjoyed it. However, ever since i started my job, i can’t have a set “routine” of the gym anymore since my rota changes every week. I also don’t want to give myself the “go when u want” option as i’m scared that it’ll make me feel guilty when i rest and leave me confused about when to rest on my days off work and when to workout. I hope this all makes sense. The thought of going to the gym or running (both things i enjoy) actually makes my heart beat fast and i get stressed and i ruminate for hours genuinely. It’s not even the action of actually doing these things that stress me out, it’s the thought of when will i actually do them? It’s the planning that stresses me out but i feel like without a plan i’ll also be in conflict in my head. Has anyone went through anything similar and found a happy balance or solution? Any help would be great