Cambridge interview but awful situationWatch
So my friend Alyssa and I both applied for Cambridge. We had been great friends and arrived to do as well in our studies as possible. We both envisioned from year 10 that we would love to study at Cambridge, me for law and her for history. We stuck by each other through everything, up until a few days ago. I found out I’d been accepted for an interview which felt amazing, however Alyssa hadn’t. She cried a river’s worth of tears and I consoled her at every possibility, saying that there’s always other options and this is no means the end of the road. I thought I had done everything in my power to reassure her and I thought things were at least better. Until they weren’t.
Sunday evening I received the worst phone call of my life. She’d killed herself. The flood of emotions, raw guilt and profuse heartache is something I’ll never get over. I am in total shock. I feel as though nothing will ever be the same. There’d been no prior warning signs and I thought I’d done everything in my power to comfort and reassure her.
I’ve been a mess since Sunday. I’ll likely not turn up for the interview since the incessant remorse would eat me alive.
Sorry for typing such an extensive amount but I just want guidance in this horrendous time.
You may want to consider liaising with the interview organisers to let them know what has happened, so that they can consider how best to support you in the interview - or whether there's the possibility of a date change. Extenuating circumstances.
In the meantime, I hope you get plenty of support from family and friends. Best of luck.
EDIT: I need to reiterate, OP, that what has happened is not your fault. None of it is. You have been a good friend.
As everyone will say, so I don’t know how helpful this is, I am sorry for your loss and as someone who had lost someone to suicide, there is a path forward.
I agree, you should speak to your college/admissions and postpone your interview if possible. You were a fantastic friend and if she is looking down on you now, and she was a true friend, she would want you to go for it and give it your all.
As the others have mentioned above, I am sure that Alyssa did have other things going on besides the mounting pressure from UCAS applications - don't feel that you are selfish or greedy for taking this opportunity, I am sure she would have supported you no matter what.