I'm in year 12, and currently take English literature, philosophy and ethics, classical civilisations and government and politics.
All of the subjects I took were meant to facilitate my love for English, which up until now I was dead set on taking for Uni. Equally, I've always had the dream of studying it in Oxford. With enough work, I believe I could have a shot at getting in. However...
I've been thrown into a loop.
Recently, I've found philosophy to be so incredibly interesting, and I find that most of my extracurricular reading involves it. On most occasions I reach for philosophy as opposed to fiction...
Oxford does not offer Philosophy as a stand alone course and requires the attached Theology which I find painfully boring. If I were to choose Philoosphy and Theology, I'd feel as though I were abandoning my dream of becoming an author, poet or anything in the English field. I know this isn't entirely rational, but it's a fear nonetheless. I love English a lot, don't get me wrong, and I can't imagine my uni life without it.
I'm stuck between three options. Trying for philosophy or English at Oxford, or a joint Philosophy and English degree which I've found in Bristol and Durham to be pretty good. Though, I'm scared that I won't have the full knowledge from a joint degree as I would from a single, as the course is equally split between the two meaning I'd naturally miss out on things others might study in both of the subjects I've joined together.
Then, if I were to apply for this at either Bristol or Durham, I feel as though I'm losing out on my longstanding dream of going to Oxford.
I know Oxbridge isn't everything, but it's hard to detach myself from something I've admired for so long.
Let me know what you think! Am I being unnecessarily irrational here? Any advice?