I’m half English and half Spanish.
My mother is Spanish, born and raised there, left to come to England to learn English at mid 20s.
My father born in England, at age 5 moved to Spain and went to boarding school there where he quickly learned Spanish. Met his best friend, my mother’s brother, and my mother in Spain. They travelled a lot when they met each other.
I was born in the Netherlands.
My parents talked to me in Spanish when I lived there as well as in Spain, was there from 2-3 years old. Then moved back to England and stayed here. When I went to nursery I would get made fun of for having a Spanish mother, teachers included. Comments would be made, they thought I would have to be held back a year without giving a reason, etc. So from then whenever my parents spoke to me in Spanish I would tell them not to, they stopped.
I’m not bilingual, only fluent in English. The main language spoken in my house is Spanish, my parents speak to each other always in Spanish. Sometimes my mother will speak to me in Spanish.
I can understand 90%-95% of what my parents say to me in Spanish. I barely talk to them in Spanish, I just can never remember the word in Spanish. My parents talk very proper English and Spanish.
Spanish films and whenever anyone other than my parents speak to me in Spanish I find it harder to understand what they are saying, it does discourage me a lot when I would try to learn Spanish.
Whenever we went to Spain to visit my family, both sides, I just always felt left out, they would have to speak English to me, even though most couldn’t really speak much. I would have to be with someone who could speak both just to go anywhere, it’s always felt embarrassing. I’ve just never really felt like I’m truly half Spanish and never feel like I can ever say it because I’m not fluent in it.
Would like to know if some people might fell similarly?