I had friends in Year 11 but everyone went to college and I went to sixth form so we just stopped being friends eventually, and I had three 'friends' in sixth form but they weren't proper friends that I met up with outside of school, just people to sit with during our free periods and lunch. I had outside of school friends but they're all much older than me and they have lives and girlfriends/boyfriends/kids now so we drifted apart..
I currently have two 'friends' but I wouldn't call one of them a friend because she treats me really badly and the other one is at uni so basically I have 0 friends. I work with mainly all older people (40+) and I try so hard to talk to the couple people my age but it's all small talk and I work in retail so I can't make proper conversation with them.. plus we have like 1 shift together every 3 months.
Ik you can join clubs to make friends but do people still do that nowadays? Covid shut down a lot of clubs near me and I've researched some and there's literally nothing, not that I have an interest in anything enough to join a club anyway.... I feel like it's not that common to join a club anymore if you're out of school, everyone's busy with uni and work and stuff.
Even if I did join a club, I feel incapable of making friends - as I said I try to at work but I feel like it would take ages to get to a level where you could meet up.
I also feel like I'm really different to people my age which doesn't help. I'm extremely shy and awkward for one, which makes it difficult to give good first impressions, and even when I get to know someone and act more confident and more like myself, I have different interests and opinions. I know there are probably people out there somewhere who will have similar interests but everyone my age I know is into different things. E.g. my two current 'friends' - one is into dr*gs, smoking, hardcore raving, obsessed with boys.. the other is into Disney, One Direction, cuddly toys etc.. They're both 21 and are completely different yet both don't share the same interests as me,..
I want to try and be more confident and have applied to uni to make friends, but that's so far away... So I'm just sad there seems to be no other ways nowadays to make friends besides clubs.. I know I could quit my job to make friends but I like it there and it's good pay, and I'm worried it might be the wrong decision and I'll end up worse off..