No friends at uni, 2nd year

I understand that anyone who started uni during the pandemic had a bit of a **** first year and so I've tried really hard this year.

I tried going to at least 2 societies a week, I tried having conversations but I guess I'm just not very memorable. I have one term of my second year left and I just feel lost.

My social skills aren't amazing but I've been trying really hard. Eye contact, asking questions and stuff. I know that I can't force any friendships. Idk maybe I'm missing stuff.

I remember my first in person class of the year. It was really awkward for everyone but by the time the next week rolled around everyone was talking, touching and hugging each other like they'd been friends for years. I was so confused and really panicked. I felt like even more of an outsider.

I tried really hard not to let it bother me, I'm trying really hard to stay positive and just smile. It's just really hard. I feel like giving up a lot.

On the brightside, I go outside a lot more and my body is a lot healthier. The 'not really having any friends thing weighs on me a lot.

My housemates are really nice people and I like them a lot but they, naturally, are very busy people, with their own lives and their own friends. I do feel a bit guilty relying on them.

Maybe it will get better, maybe I just need to focus on other things.