I spent the vast majority of my high school years being tormented by my peers, physically and verbally. I was depressed, felt like I had no future, felt like I was unattractive. I was a social outcast, always spending my free time at home playing video games. That was my life. Go to school, get bullied, go home, play games.
College wasn't much better, but the bullying subsided somewhat.
But, things began to work out for me. I worked hard, and I didn't stop, no matter how much I wanted to. I just kept at it because I knew it was the only way things would ever get better again.
Keep at it. Smile. Be yourself. You'll fight through the bull****. I promise you. I did, and so can you!