I know a thing or two about not getting what someone you're in eye-contact with has inside when they're looking at you. It comes with the territory of having aspergers. I'm older, a mature student and have been through more life experience than you would care about, but it's enough to say a couple things. Don't rely on it as a means of building it up in your head; that's stupid, no offense, we've all done it. Two, don't worry about it, you'll be fine, your feelings are nice as a feeling for you to have, even though you'd be better off getting out of your head which is why you have to stop worrying about stuff that doesn't matter. You'll find yourself in hardship, but there's no shortage of real hardship you need to alleviate by forging your own personal sorrow. You don't need to learn the hard way, I learned the hard way and I'm offering you the learning free of charge. Learn from it.