i have an ed, and today i had an appointment with a doctor related to something else and they found out i was a little underweight, and asked me some questions because of it. i was like yh i eat well and they referred me to a dietician and asked me to keep a food diary.
now im stressed. they asked me questions and i lied because i was panicking, eg they asked me if i get my period and i said yh even tho i dont, asked me if i ever restrict or purge and i said no
and i want to lie in my food diary because i dont want to focus on upping my intake rn because i have exams to worry about lol and i'd rather focus on that than "recovery" im just really scared cuz if i lie forever theyre gonna find out
idk what to do, my parents know i dont really eat/throw up food etc but they dont really know what EDs are so theyre like "start eating" and i say ok and stuff so.
i feel like the doctor could see through my lies lol, i was panicking af so my heartrate was really high. im not very skinny so i know she was confused as to why im underweight lol but yeah
i really dont know who to tell because my parents dont know EDs exist, and i dont want my friends to worry, and now i feel like if i lie they will figure it out anyway and put me inpatient or something idk
just thought --- what should i do??? i lied to my doctor so im ashamed to admit it now, i thought it was a one time appointment and if i told her i was fine she would discharge me, but she booked a blood test and i know nothings wrong with my blood so if that comes back negative shes gonna be suspicious.
sorrry this was a vent im just very very stuck, exams are coming and im stressing about something else lol. thank you sm for any advice sorry if this is a lot