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Folks - can I have some humble advice?

I'm doing a PG program at a so-called prestigious Scottish university, which will last until Sep 2023 if the university isn't conspired against me.

For 10 years I've been battling IBS-Diarrhea, anxiety, depression problems - only the 1st of which was formally diagnosed - which destroyed my teenage & early adulthood, including 4 years of nightmarish undergraduate “life” featuring indescribable suffering (bachelor's degree done outside Britain). I also had to deal with unsympathetic family members, making my struggle alone & painful. Basically, my growth was full of scars. My personality as well.

The current PG program requires 6 taught courses & 1 research project to be passed in the 1st year, followed by full-year research in the 2nd year. In the 1st term, I failed one of the courses & took another in the 2nd term to make up for it. The 2 other courses in the 1st term were barely passed, so was another course in the 2nd term.
What seems to have made matter worse is I got COVID from my flatmate despite fully vaccinated & was too sick to take one of the course's exam in the 2nd term, making it postponed for me to August, which I expect to be super difficult.

When I failed a course for 1st time last year, my program head told me not to panic, saying that the very unlikely worst case scenario would be to make me leave with a “lower” degree (would be so unacceptable to me that I don't know what I'd do).


To prepare for this calamity, I called the NHS GP hotline last Thursday. The operator told me the GP on duty would call me back in 45 minutes, which he/she didn't, then came the Platinum Jubilee Holiday & weekend when the medical practice was closed.

I did talk to the student services of my current university before, but I do understand to convince the university that one's conditions severely impact their academic performance diagnosis/diagnoses via NHS specialist(s) - rather than an old diagnosis somewhere else - is/are inevitable.
I'm told by peers that the NHS mental health services are so running out of manpower that even the most serious cases can't get treated.

I can never stop worrying. Once a “worry” is gone, my brain locates another matter to create nonsense to worry about. I feel the school, the university...everything is conspired against me & ready to push me down to an abyss at any time.

It looks really bleak.

What shall I do?
Original post by Anonymous
I'm told by peers that the NHS mental health services are so running out of manpower that even the most serious cases can't get treated.

I can never stop worrying. Once a “worry” is gone, my brain locates another matter to create nonsense to worry about. I feel the school, the university...everything is conspired against me & ready to push me down to an abyss at any time.

It looks really bleak.

What shall I do?

What level are you studying at?What made you choose to do a post grad course.
Original post by Scotney
What level are you studying at?What made you choose to do a post grad course.


Because I love what I am working on
Original post by Anonymous
Because I love what I am working on

Can you afford to pay for a clinical psycholgist privately?Is your MH the main reason you are struggling.
Original post by Scotney
Can you afford to pay for a clinical psycholgist privately?Is your MH the main reason you are struggling.


It is unfilial to do so. I can't afford to waste more of my parents' money for some colic problem, can I ?
Original post by Anonymous
It is unfilial to do so. I can't afford to waste more of my parents' money for some colic problem, can I ?

You are going to waste their money by failing your PG degree if you do not deal with the underlying problems.However you did not answer my question is it your mental health or physical problems that are causing you to fail.
Original post by Scotney
You are going to waste their money by failing your PG degree if you do not deal with the underlying problems.However you did not answer my question is it your mental health or physical problems that are causing you to fail.


Well, if I am to fail, you know...

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