i have almost finished taking all my a-levels, but I have not left any of them feeling like it was my absolute best. I would like to retake because I know I could do much better.
Some context: At the beginning of year 12 just after lockdown, for the first term of A-levels I was doing really well i.e. getting As in all 4 subjects , 80%+ in all topic tests. My predicted grades were all A* (based on our GCSE results- how our school does it).
Then lockdown happened and I lost motivation, i fell behind, lost my momentum and became complacent. Therefore as I was not able to keep up i started doubting my self and having negative self beliefs, exams were also cancelled that year again but I managed somehow and got Bs and one A in bio.
Then year 13 came and I was so overwhelmed and my mental health was really bad as a result of the pressure and how I was not doing well academically. I am also a young carer for my mum and that has also been hard. I feel like I have let everyone down but more importantly myself as I know my potential, but the skills I have gained from this experience like how to study properly, managing my time and stress i discovered too late into y13 and despite researching a lot into studying, in my opinion have learnt a lot more from going through the experience of external exams.
My mental health i.e. anxiety and depression got really bad in like March so I filled out the CBT form online for therapy - but I was on the waiting list and I only got a reply last week.
The question is I don't know whether my school will allow me to redo year 13 - or the subjects I don't get an A in.
I also applied for Medicine this year which i got 4 rejections from that is why I need the As in my subjects I do bio,chem and psych. In my mocks I somehow got low As for bio and psych and a C in chem. Therefore depending on what I get in the summer i.e. if it is B in chem- do you think they will let me retake that subject only if I explain my situation?
I know Med schools in England mostly don't take retakes unless they have extenuating circumstances - would my situation qualify for that?
I have a fear that my teachers will think that I don't have a legitimate reason to retake.
My other option is to do graduate entry into Medicine.