I'll try & keep this short & sweet!! A few months back I was in a relationship with someone that I fell for big time, I don't know why but hey love is funny like that. It ended a while back, I could tell there was a problem as he became more distant and kept asking if things were okay. Things just fizzled out and I don't really speak to him much now, just the odd text/facebook message but I really have feelings for the guy still which I have never had before - he is deffo my first and only real love so far.
Thing is the problem was more than likely me, I basically had an eating disorder and was too embarassed to admit to it and was worried about what his reaction would be. If we went for lunch I would hardly say a word sometimes as I would be so worried about the food coming my way and thinking of a way to get out of eating it. I spoke to an old friend who asked me what had been wrong with me recently as I became a bit moody & withdrawn and I guess she made me realise that was probably the reason. If I could turn back the clock I would have told him & who knows maybe we would still be an item but I can't think like that!!
I'm wondering now if I should give him a quick text to explain why I was acting a bit funny or should I just leave it?? As I say it has been a while now and will be a bit out of the blue... I don't want to scare him off completely.
Guess what Im trying to ask is if you were the guy in question would you appreciate the text or would it annoy you and make you wonder what I was after?? Im not looking for sympathy or using it as a way to get back with him as realistically I know that isn't going to happen... I just don't really want him thinking im normally like that because I can be fun honest
(I'm a guy by the way!).
Over the Easter break