Hello all,
I'm 3 months in to my Secondary PGDE and I've been finding the placement really tough. It's not just the workload that's been getting to me, it's the whole Secondary school environment.
When I was in school I absolutely loved Primary school; it was a safe haven and happy place for me. I never adjusted to Secondary school and always missed Primary school. I honestly thought I'd never become a Secondary school teacher, however 10 years after graduating I decided that I would in fact like to be a teacher, and that it would feel completely different coming back to that environment so much older and wiser.
I was getting on reasonably well during the first 2-3 weeks, but I'm at the end of week 6 now and I'm feeling burnt out. It was during week 4 that I first started having thoughts that this was maybe not the right career for me. This past week I've dreaded going in every day. I mostly enjoy teaching the first years, but I have 2nd and 3rd year classes that I'm struggling with. I love teaching 4-12 year olds (I have experience teaching one-on-one with all age groups from 4 to adults), however I find teenagers a lot more difficult to get through to. I'm finding the environment hectic, and some of the kids difficult to handle. Some of them are lovely though and really make it (almost) worth it.
Just to clarify; the reason I decided to go with Secondary teaching is because I wanted to teach a specific subject. I knew going in that this was not the age group I would be most comfortable with.
I've been really down this week to the point I've almost not been able to motivate myself to go in to school. This week I had a Primary School visit; it's essentially a day where you observe a P7 class at a local Primary school and take notes on how it's different to Secondary school.
I was sort of hoping I wouldn't enjoy it, and I'd get to the end of the day feeling like Secondary was more suited to me. Unfortunately I really enjoyed it...! The environment was so different. The kids were just that little bit younger, they weren't playing on their phones or talking back to the teacher, the bell wasn't going every 45 minutes causing a new wave of disruption. I just got this feeling at the end of the day that I'd enjoy this environment so much more, despite not getting the chance to go in-depth with my subject like I would in Secondary school.
Anyway my current plan after today is to just stick out the Secondary PGDE and possibly try to get in to Primary after that. Has anyone had this same experience, and does anyone out there have any advice on how to transfer over from Secondary to Primary? Or has anyone had this same experience at this point in their placement but come to enjoy Secondary more over time?
It's a confusing time so any help or thoughts much appreciated- thanks!