I was a A* student in GCSE and have always been the brightest pupil praised by all of my teachers. but during my alevels I suffered with mental health and failed everything. I am studying at home to retake my exams this year and is aiming for A*A*A* in Maths, Further maths, and Physics. I am scared because Oxbridge and competitive courses in other Universities Will not take me as I have resat.
I am worried for my future, if I am to become a successful physicist or Engineer, is it too late to start working hard in University? I didn't study at all during my two years in sixthform and the best I can do now is to achieve A*s in my three resit subjects.
To people in the Engineering industry and people that does physical science PHDs, how important is alevels really in your career and will my resat alevels hinder mine?
I often worry too much and overthinks, it's taking a toll on my studies as I am at home relying on my will to keep me going. These worries upsets me and I really need to hear reassuring words from people that knows more.
I think growing up believing myself as talented and smart set me up with really high standards. The standards which I don't live up to anymore, I have a fragile ego and feels incompetent everyday, I've been struggling to get anything done since my depression started.