i’m 17F and recently my guy friend and i realised we like each other. although we’ve texted every day since we met, we’ve only met in person a couple of times due to distance, and we only met one-on-one for the first time a few weeks ago. this meet-up was where we first kissed and thus realised we liked each other. however, we were a bit short on time that night, and i got the impression that if we’d had longer, he would’ve wanted to have sex.
i’m meeting him again soon and i’m pretty certain that he’s expecting to have sex, but i’ve never had sex before, whereas i’m 99% sure he has, especially as he’s been in a long term relationship. i, on the other hand, have never done anything more than kiss a couple of guys whilst drunk, and so am very nervous about the whole prospect. i don’t know if i feel ready, not because i don’t want to have sex or don’t like him, but because i’m very scared about the pain, bleeding, and just generally looking like an idiot because of how inexperienced i am. above all, though, i am terrified of getting pregnant. plus, i have very strict parents, and i honestly don’t know what they’d do if they found out i had sex.
he doesn’t know that i’ve never had sex, so obviously i would tell him if we ended up in that position, but i suppose my question is whether i should go through with it or not? and if so, how should i go about it? i’ve considered that it’s probably just worth waiting a few months until i’m off at uni, but i really like this guy and don’t want to mess things up with him?