I have my first paper in about 15days. I had been preparing for long and I never felt like they were enough.
I have an offer for Warwick for A*AA and I take three essay based subjects. I used to enjoy revision but I don’t anymore. When I sit in front of my desk I spontaneously want to cry, nothing brings me joy and I’m exhausted. I went on 10 days break to the Maldives thinking it would make everything better but it’s been worse. I nap because my body can’t take it anymore and I dream about the contents I’m learning, I wake up all guilty and sweaty. The problem is for my AS I obtained BCD and I started to feel like I’m never gonna be enough to get A*AA. I don’t even know if I can pass. I want to throw everything away but I am scared of losing my offer. I can’t afford to f*ck this up but I am extremely burnt out. Somebody pls help