Same. It has ruined me so much. After resolving to do something important that requires me to talk to someone, it takes me atleast 2 weeks to implement it. This was the issue I faced with reference when I was applying for universities. However, even when I did, things did not go smoothly. This reference thing was only resolved completely yesterday, after 7 months. I had to worry constantly about this for 7 months because getting into a good uni is a dream of mine (i'm that studious person). I have no friends, and honestly I do not need any either but what bugs me is that whenever someone talks to me, even those whom I have known for three years, my mind shuts down and I end up smiling stupidly. But its not getter better. In fact, its getting worse. I am now socially anxious arond my sister, my grandmother and my father whom I LIVE with. And m from a brown family so we are really close. We eat dinners together n all. It sucks honestly. It will make me lose at life, no matter how ambitious I am.