I’m 17 and female. I’m quite tall for my age - 5’10 - and I have brown skin (I’m Indian) Only in the past year, have I thought that I’m actually pretty and I feel pretty especially when I have make up on.
Tbh I have no social life whatsoever because my parents are strict so I go to no parties and I don’t go out EVER. I think the last time I went out for fun was last year in April.
But I’m also a really big nerd and I’m an extreme try hard so I spend most of my free periods at sixth form with my headphones blaring music and I’m just studying while my friends are messing around.
I’ve been asked out a few times by guys of my culture and tbh I’ve been asked out by 2 white guys too. I didn’t go out with any of them as my priority is my school education and getting good alevels.
But last year, one guy made up a rumour stating how I only date white guys, which isn’t true.
Whenever I’m walking people seem to always stare at me but idk.
Sometimes I feel extremely confident, but sometimes I feel like this feeling isn’t true and that I’m not pretty and I’m just getting stared at in a weird manner lol.
But I do feel pretty in my own body a lot of the time.
I do wonder if it is because I’m tall, I’m brown, my head is always in books, I only hang around with 2 people at school that I don’t feel pretty.
But I hope at uni I feel better.