I've been up and down many years but just hit bottom again. I have a massive crush on this guy, he clearly not interested but I just can't get over him for some reason. It doesn't help him and his friends are all the social life I have, and every time I'm reminded of how good looking and charming he is.
Being depressed and awkward I drink a ton every time we hang out, way more than them but especially lately it doesn't do that much anymore. All I feel is sick and bloated but still sad and on edge. They're much closer to each other and I just feel I'm not cool enough for him or any of them.