year 12 problems

So i started year 12 september 2023 at a sixth form college and didn’t have great GCSE grades because i had (and still have) a negative attitude towards school and didn’t revise for any of it properly but when i tried to, i didn’t know what to do.

I’m doing english literature, art and sociology a levels. I don’t mind sociology but english and art are horrible for me. I started skipping classes in the start of year 12 as i had no interest in my subjects, and i still don’t have any interest in them or any other subject options except criminology. I am still skipping classes so much because im scared of how behind i am as i have missed months of work, and honestly i have no motivation for catching up as i know i wont as i don’t like the subjects.

Im especially behind in art because i have no work in my sketchbook and i don’t even understand art or have talent, i only chose it as i got a 5 (one of my highest grades) in my gcse, which i also didn’t enjoy or care about. Because im so behind, i keep skipping the class and know that when i do go to class i won’t have a clue what im doing and will be in trouble with the teacher.

Also i think i may suffer from social anxiety, which is another issue i faced in year 9 to year 11 in secondary school. Since i have no friends, im scared to go into classes and then don’t go in general. But i don’t want to be friends with anybody in my sixth form as none of them are my kind of people and i have no energy for people. I’m stuck in a cycle of skipping classes and not doing homework or assignments because i don’t understand anything.

I just want to know if anybody can relate to this because i’m feeling so alone and i know that i’ve dug this hole for myself but it would be nice to know someone else is in the same boat.

Another thing is im scared of being outside in public in general because im scared of being perceived, so that also makes me skip classes and avoid school in general.

#year12 #alevels #skippingclass #socialanxiety

Reply 1

flowersinmyhair

Volunteer Team

Is there anyone you could talk to about how you are feeling?
It is obvious to me that you are really struggling and could probably do with some support whether that be from your sixth form, parents/carers or your GP. You could also use a service like Kooth where the support is anonymous.

Reply 2

voluptuous-sopho

Original post by flowersinmyhair

i’ve told my parents before that i was behind on college work (not about me skipping) and they knew i was struggling with catching up and supported me but i told them that im fine and am caught up now because i didn’t want to accept how serious this problem is as it’s gone too far, but they don’t know about my possible social anxiety (don’t want to self diagnose) as i know if i brought it up they’d say it’s fake or brush it off

Reply 3

flowersinmyhair

Volunteer Team

Original post by voluptuous-sopho

How are your sixth form dealing with you skipping lessons? You parents will almost certainly find out sooner or later so I would probably tell them that you are anxious about going to lessons, so you end up skipping them which is leading you to be behind.

Reply 4

Yipiyap_Brooke

Hi! It sounds like you'd definitely benefit from a visit to your GP or school counsellor to talk about this, as it seems like quite a difficult time for you! Don't be hard on yourself, be open with your teachers about how you're finding it, and start small by going to lessons again 🙂 good luck, you got this!