(we're both teens btw) i've been dating this boy for 2 months. we got pretty serious, said "i love you", i met his parents quite a few times, for dinner etc, he was my first time, i met his friends on double dates, we spent a LOOOT of time together. we had a disagreement on friday where he said he thought the idea of forever was entrapping, while im more of a think long-term girl. he broke up with me so i could "be free" to find boys like me, and he said he felt free after the breakup, and he thought he would regret the decision in like a month's time, but i told him not to come back. he then unadded, left me on read on whatsapp, and hung up on me pretty easy. we had our rough moments - i had a cancer scare and he forgot about it (it's still ongoing and he would never ask how it was going), we sucked at communicating, etc.
but today i found out (his mate told me) he actually broke up with me cuz he really liked me, but his friend was hosting a party and he didn't want to be in a relationship for that party so he could talk to girls. this is obvs devastating. i really genuinely loved him, though clearly he didnt reciprocate that. the night he dumped me, i stayed up the whole night before a big scan.
i handled it by sending him a paragraph basically saying he fumbled a girl who loved him, saying he's blocked and wishing him well (then blocking). is there any better way to handle it? ik it's bad but i want him to regret it and miss me as well (though i'd doubt i'd take him back). and how do i move on past realising my worth and value? any tips would be greatly appreciated, and any boys who know how the male mind works and what he'd likely be thinking, that would be rly appreciated, ty x