right now I'm struggling with pretty severe depression to the point where I rarely leave my room or home in general and absolutely cant focus on anything or have energy to keep myself awake. ive already failed some modules and im scared that im going to fail even more. in the worst case for me i will probably have to resit a year of uni which i completely want to avoid because i physically dont think i would have enough motivation to even do that.
im embarrassed of the fact that im not even managing to pass my modules but i dont know what to do to change it. in the past i used to have this incentive to work one week before something was due at its latest yet now i dont even feel the stress that made me want to work even on the day something is due.
the main thing on my mind for the past months is that id rather just not do anything and drop out. but i know that this is a stupid option because ive already wasted so much to get to this point and i actually want to try to have some kind of decent future. im not really sure how to deal with all of this so i guess this is more of a rant and me just wondering if anyone else is similar to me or just knows what the hell i can do to stop self sabotaging so much and ruining things for myself.