Feeling lost

i just need to vent a bit so I'm just using this to shout into the void for a bit

Y13 about to sit my A-levels and i just feel so numb. im not getting the grades i need and have no motivation to study and even when i do i just feel like nothings sinking in.
i feel like such a failure even though Ive got an offer for vet med but i dont feel like i deserve it,i have so little experience and know next to nothing about the industry and i dont even know where to start learning about it now, i applied because its what i thought i always wanted to do but i dont know now.

i should be excited ive got an offer but in all honesty i thought i wouldnt get any and now cant defer and id be an idiot to reject it.

i have no money and my loan isnt enough to cover my cost of living - im lucky if it even covers my rent and my parents cant support me financially

i just dont know what to do anymore

Reply 1

MissTeee

Original post by Ella.R123

i just need to vent a bit so I'm just using this to shout into the void for a bit
Y13 about to sit my A-levels and i just feel so numb. im not getting the grades i need and have no motivation to study and even when i do i just feel like nothings sinking in.
i feel like such a failure even though Ive got an offer for vet med but i dont feel like i deserve it,i have so little experience and know next to nothing about the industry and i dont even know where to start learning about it now, i applied because its what i thought i always wanted to do but i dont know now.
i should be excited ive got an offer but in all honesty i thought i wouldnt get any and now cant defer and id be an idiot to reject it.
i have no money and my loan isnt enough to cover my cost of living - im lucky if it even covers my rent and my parents cant support me financially
i just dont know what to do anymore

Ella, I don’t have any advice about money or exams that will help much, but I am older and have faced some pretty tough stuff, for what it’s worth.
You sound very tired and a bit overwhelmed. This is understandable. When you feel like this, it’s easy for challenges to become problems.
I would advise talking to someone about this, at school or college. It really does help to get some professional advice and more importantly, some perspective.
I hope someone on here can give you some advice re finance. It may be worth posting again on a thread for vet students.
Don’t give up. Resilience is what will get you through this, and all the other crap life throws at you.
x

Reply 2

^m_g_b^

Original post by Ella.R123

i just need to vent a bit so I'm just using this to shout into the void for a bit
Y13 about to sit my A-levels and i just feel so numb. im not getting the grades i need and have no motivation to study and even when i do i just feel like nothings sinking in.
i feel like such a failure even though Ive got an offer for vet med but i dont feel like i deserve it,i have so little experience and know next to nothing about the industry and i dont even know where to start learning about it now, i applied because its what i thought i always wanted to do but i dont know now.
i should be excited ive got an offer but in all honesty i thought i wouldnt get any and now cant defer and id be an idiot to reject it.
i have no money and my loan isnt enough to cover my cost of living - im lucky if it even covers my rent and my parents cant support me financially
i just dont know what to do anymore

Hi Ella!

I felt like I just looked in a mirror, I was in your exact situation word for word 3 years ago! All I can say is you'd be amazed how things work out. I struggled and lost myself during A-level exams. For me, I missed the grades for my offer on vet med by one (ONE!!!) grade and I was absolutely devastated, (I know this may be the opposite of uplifting for you right now but bear with me). I ended up accepting clearing offer to study biology.

While being here I've discovered something I'm massively passionate about! I'm all set to finish my degree (final exams in 2 weeks ew), and next year I'm hoping to move to Australia with my boyfriend to study my masters degree. If I told my A levels self what my life was like now, she'd probably die of shock.

If I had got that grades that I needed, I would be loving life down in Surrey studying to be a vet. I didn't, and now I'm loving life finishing my studies at Sheffield, getting ready to move across the world with the love of my life (that I would never have met if I did move down south!), to start studying to be an embryologist and bring life into the world through IVF!

What I'm saying is, make the best of what you can do. You don't have to be the smartest or the most certain about your future. Whatever path you end up on after these exams, amazing things will find you!

As for your financial situation, again I was the exact same. You'd be so surprised at how helpful universities can be! I ended up receiving a bursary that I don't need to pay back that got me through my studies. I promise there will be more people than you think in your situation. Finance teams at uni (if yours will be anything like mine) have handled these kinds of problems hundreds of times. They are so understanding and lovely!

I really do wish you the best of luck with your studies, you've already got an offer for vet med which is horrendously difficult so you're clearly better than you think you are!