Hi everyone,
I just wanted to ask for some advice and maybe see if there have been others in my situation.
I used to be a carer a few years back and loved my job and from then on always wanted to do Nursing. This will now be my third time of trying to get through year 1 of adult Nursing and unfortunately I'm having the same issue with Nursing that I always do. I never have an issue with the course itself or my motivation for academic stuff but I have severe anxiety and depression which is proving really difficult. It has got to the point where I cannot bring myself to step on go a ward for placement.
I have completed therapy and I take medication. Both of them have helped a lot but I have been told that over the years facing the same situation, the therapist believes I have learnt escapism and avoidance. I know this is the case as its easier to run than face the issues head on. I am working so hard to get back to placement but constantly in a situation where I'm behind on hours or in a position where I may have to interrupt.
As much as this could be am option due to having previous student finance, this would put me in a difficult position having to retake 1 module again next year.
I know I'm capable of doing Nursing as I've worked in many areas of care and used to have no issues. Since been diagnosed around 10 years ago, I find the build up to the placement and night before etc just awful. Crying, panic attacks, feeling low but once I've given myself a few days it gets easier.
I'm now at a point where I have a couple of days to decide to withdraw, interrupt or continue and try to finish year 1.
Any advice at all would be really appreciated because I'm struggling with my decision. I do have a lot of passion and drive for Nursing, I just don't know what way to turn!!
Thank you for reading