Is anyone else like this? How do I fix it?

Why can’t I express my emotions properly? I cannot seem react at all. Even though the feelings are still there I cannot express them though my facial expressions or tone of voice. It’s gotten a little better since I started Sixth Form and by that I only mean that I’m able to smile whenever I’m amused without much effort. Other than that, I’m pretty much the same. I’ve been like this since forever and I thought it would be something that would go away with time, but…? It’s really frustrating. Because of this, I’m always deemed as rude by my classmates, family members and sometimes even teachers. They often say that I ‘give them looks’ or roll my eyes at them which is not my intention at all. I’ve also pretty much always been a social outcast and never had any friends except for my immediate family for all my life. I guess I’m a bit timid and I had selective mutism for all of primary school, but throughout the years, there have been plenty of people trying to befriend me and I tried to get along with them too but I always end up isolating myself in the end because dealing with others gets too overwhelming and I can’t cope with it. I like the idea of talking and being friends with people, but whenever I try to do that in real life, I always end up regretting it. Even if the person is nice and amicable, I always end up detaching from them. It’s like I can’t even control it. And whenever I do interact with others, they always perceive me as weird. It's so obvious that I ruin the vibe whenever I'm around. This doesn’t just happen in school, it’s with family members too and basically just everyone (except for my parents, they do not think there is anything wrong with me, they think that I do it on purpose or that ‘it will go away with time’).
I’ll be an adult soon and go to University, yet I still cannot ******* act like a normal person. Will I even be able to hold a job (that isn’t minimum wage) like this? I have incredibly poor communication skills. Can I even be able to befriend others and maintain relationships? How do I fix this?

Id recommend seeing a GP, talking about the issues on here.

they're not that helpful, honestly. i'm also on a waiting list for an autism assessment but they're incredibly long so i dont except much

You could maybe refer yourself to a therapist on the NHS, which you can do online.
Maybe therapy could give you the tools and advice needed to help with the issue.

they're not that helpful, honestly. i'm also on a waiting list for an autism assessment but they're incredibly long so i dont except much

i've had quite a few session with a emhp in my school for low mood but that did not help at all. it was cbt but still i did not gain anything from it and i kinda regret doing it. waste of my time

I was going to say, these sound like ASD traits. What university are you going to?

idk yet i'm gonna take a gap year and apply for 2025 entry

Why can’t I express my emotions properly? I cannot seem react at all. Even though the feelings are still there I cannot express them though my facial expressions or tone of voice. It’s gotten a little better since I started Sixth Form and by that I only mean that I’m able to smile whenever I’m amused without much effort. Other than that, I’m pretty much the same. I’ve been like this since forever and I thought it would be something that would go away with time, but…? It’s really frustrating. Because of this, I’m always deemed as rude by my classmates, family members and sometimes even teachers. They often say that I ‘give them looks’ or roll my eyes at them which is not my intention at all. I’ve also pretty much always been a social outcast and never had any friends except for my immediate family for all my life. I guess I’m a bit timid and I had selective mutism for all of primary school, but throughout the years, there have been plenty of people trying to befriend me and I tried to get along with them too but I always end up isolating myself in the end because dealing with others gets too overwhelming and I can’t cope with it. I like the idea of talking and being friends with people, but whenever I try to do that in real life, I always end up regretting it. Even if the person is nice and amicable, I always end up detaching from them. It’s like I can’t even control it. And whenever I do interact with others, they always perceive me as weird. It's so obvious that I ruin the vibe whenever I'm around. This doesn’t just happen in school, it’s with family members too and basically just everyone (except for my parents, they do not think there is anything wrong with me, they think that I do it on purpose or that ‘it will go away with time’).
I’ll be an adult soon and go to University, yet I still cannot ******* act like a normal person. Will I even be able to hold a job (that isn’t minimum wage) like this? I have incredibly poor communication skills. Can I even be able to befriend others and maintain relationships? How do I fix this?

I’d get a councillor if you have one in sixth form. Mine had a dedicated councillor to the whole of our sixth form, so I’d go for it.

When you do go, look at each universities student support systems, inclusive support and wellbeing services. Some are better than others. Read reviews from students as well, not just what the staff tell you as obviously they will make it sound amazing. In your gap year, push your doctor and ask to make your referral urgent.