Hello,
I wanted to post this away from the main pupillage forum as I'm aware that I am in a very privileged position and I don't want to cause any upset or additional stress to anyone.
After a seemingly endless barrage of rejections throughout this cycle, I was offered a pupillage at one of the sets I applied to. I was expecting to feel overjoyed at this, but to be honest I do not feel the slightest bit enthusiastic and really I am quite scared about accepting.
For one thing, the pupillage is in a specific area of law, which although it's an area I am very interested in, I would have preferred a more mixed pupillage. Secondly, I feel like I'm not really ready for pupillage, representing people in court is such an important job and I'm just not sure I have the knowledge/experience/maturity for it. Finally I'm currently studying the bar course and I've not really been enjoying it. I've found it extremely stressful and it's taken up most of my evenings and weekends which has been putting strains on my relationship and just generally sapped my enthusiasm for anything. If practicing at the bar is going to be the same then in my view the sacrifice simply isn't worth it.
I understand that the decision of whether to accept the offer is entirely down to me, but I was just wondering if anyone has any words of wisdom or if they have been in a similar situation to me? Does the fact that I am not jumping up and down with joy at the offer mean the bar isn't for me?