Really quite lonely

I just feel weird, disliked and awkward quite a bit of the time. I don't have any proper friends in college, I have some online friends but when the one I like the most isn't online or doesn't reply I feel really lonely. I'm 16 and a girl btw. I called him for the first time yesterday on discord and it wasn't that awkward but because I'm constantly worried abt that kinda thing (irl too) sometimes I would mess up and backtrack on what I say cause I don't want him to judge me. I really like him tho, I might have a crush on him idk but I also have a crush on someone irl too who's just as confusing... But then I also don't get why my online friends (particular the one I said abt) wanna be my friend. Sometimes I just don't understand why ppl would like me, or love me, let alone in a relationship way. I love or like them, how could they love or like me? I don't get it, anyway thanks for reading lol

Reply 1

username6742906

Hey! Im sorry thats happening to you im actually going thru the same thing lol wanna chat or pm?

Reply 2

quinvincible

Hi! I just saw this but if either of you want to be friends feel free to reach out! I don't have any real friends either, and I also struggle with feeling unwanted or unloved a lot 😢

Reply 3

PenguinWhale

Original post by ZainahK

Hey! Im sorry thats happening to you im actually going thru the same thing lol wanna chat or pm?

hi - im going thru the same thing as well, id be happy to talk if ur down for that! :smile:

Reply 4

PenguinWhale

Original post by Poogyhctuvf

I just feel weird, disliked and awkward. I don't have any proper friends. I have some online friends but when the one I like the most isn't online or doesn't reply I feel really lonely. it wasn't that awkward, I'm constantly worried abt that kinda thing, sometimes I would mess up and backtrack on what I say, I don't want him to judge me. i don't get why my online friends (particular the one I said abt) wanna be my friend. Sometimes I just don't understand why ppl would like me, or love me, let alone in a relationship way. I don't get it

i really relate to this as well sadly. 😢 im sorry ur going thru this and i hope things are better for u now. but if u ever need someone to chat with, im always here <3