I have a lot of hatred for my course., but I can't leave.

I'm in an asian household and Im taking us Biology course, because my father said that it's the best course for a doctor (specifically a surgeon). Since highschool I've been struggling to decide which course i will take in college. In the past years, I've been wanting to be a youtuber and I've talked to my mother anout it, but she is against the idea so i scratch it. I was still young and grew up not being able to speak out. So years have pasted, I've decided that i really wanted animations and talked to my parents about it, and my mom is still against it but I've talk it out and still she is against it.
I'm in college now, and its my 2nd time of being in 1st year. I remove the idea of being an animator and my passion for drawing, I brainwashed my self in to thinking that I really want to become a doctor. The same subject that I still keep failing, i still failed today and having low score every quizzes. I was depressed I hate math so much, and seeing that my course revolves around math despised me so much. To the point im not even studying for the exams anymore. I really wanted a course that would make me happy, i really love doing makeups, being creative, fun, like working in disney, working behind the stage. Though i know it's still hard, but it is not as hard as being pressured by the fact I need to study about my course and the pressure by my family already saying "we have our future doctor" burdens me a lot.
I really need help...

I'm in an asian household and Im taking us Biology course, because my father said that it's the best course for a doctor (specifically a surgeon). Since highschool I've been struggling to decide which course i will take in college. In the past years, I've been wanting to be a youtuber and I've talked to my mother anout it, but she is against the idea so i scratch it. I was still young and grew up not being able to speak out. So years have pasted, I've decided that i really wanted animations and talked to my parents about it, and my mom is still against it but I've talk it out and still she is against it.
I'm in college now, and its my 2nd time of being in 1st year. I remove the idea of being an animator and my passion for drawing, I brainwashed my self in to thinking that I really want to become a doctor. The same subject that I still keep failing, i still failed today and having low score every quizzes. I was depressed I hate math so much, and seeing that my course revolves around math despised me so much. To the point im not even studying for the exams anymore. I really wanted a course that would make me happy, i really love doing makeups, being creative, fun, like working in disney, working behind the stage. Though i know it's still hard, but it is not as hard as being pressured by the fact I need to study about my course and the pressure by my family already saying "we have our future doctor" burdens me a lot.
I really need help...

Can you speak to other members if your family (perhaps those in different professions) or your teachers so that they can speak to your parents about where your strengths lie. If you are good at something you will excel in that area. For example: hairdressing/beauty may not be as academic as a doctor but owning a beauty business makes your an entrepreneur and your own boss.
Also, you need Chemistry for medicine, not Biology. Get some support and guidance from school and I hope they will be able to help you.
Best wishes.

Im also from a asian household, and i really relate to the struggle of wanting to do as your parents please. I too spent lots of time trying to be the perfect asian daughter, not realising who i was. I think that bringing up the possibility that being a doctor is not the only way to become successful might be a start. I personally enjoy photography- its a fun way to relax- maybe doing something like that might make your course more bearable if your parents still don't listen to you

Thank you for this! It boost my self and encourage me to seek other courses that i want and enjoy.