handling breakup

I broke up with my boyfriend of 9 months yesterday and I am beyond hurt. I still love him and emotionally want to be with him, but logically knew it had to happen because of social incompatibility and because we'd have to do long distance in a couple of months, which we're both too anxious for.I feel so empty and like there’s no point to anything. The only person I want to talk to this about is him, I want to cry in his arms and tell him exactly how much this destroys me and how much I love him. I miss him. I wish things were different. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to stop loving him. Everywhere I go it feels like I’m walking through a frozen world of memories, everything reminds me of him, and I miss it all. I miss the way he'd say hi, and his goofy smile, and his dances when he was excited. He was not only my boyfriend, but my best friend, and I really can't go on without him.I'm really worried about him because he's not very satisfied with his life outside of our relationship, and I hate myself for hurting him, and I hate that I can't be the one there to make him feel better. I want so badly to text him but I don't want to postpone our hurt or play with his emotions, but I need him to know how much I truly have and always will love him.I'm trying to go through the motions, but I can't stop crying, I went for a walk with my mom, I went for a run, I took a shower, I made plans with my best friend, but I just hate everything and want to go back to him. How do I heal? How do I live with the pain of never having him as my boyfriend again? How do I live with hurting him, knowing how much love he deserves and how little he thinks of himself, even through he's truly the most caring, wonderful human being? Do I try to fix things, at least for until we have to go long distance?