We're sorry to hear you're at a point of crisis with your mental health, and you're feeling so overwhelmed at the thought of the steps you need to take to achieve your goals. After having the worst two years of your life, it sounds as though you are doing incredibly well to be surviving and still engaging in your education, even if you don't feel you're hitting the targets you'd envisioned for yourself. If you find this situation is leading to thoughts of suicide at times, it might be helpful to talk this through with someone else. If you'd like to talk anonymously to a suicide prevention adviser, Hopeline is available 24/7 via the contact details on our profile.