I can’t do with the bullsh*t no more . Im currently in high school , and we’ve been best friends for so many years . We were really close last year and I would say that was our “pinnacle” of our friendship . Everything seemed to be amazing - we were constantly laughing happy and making memories . But since this year , he seems to be less interested. Whilst i don’t think it’s clear he doesn’t want to back out of the friendship - he just seems more different and not how he used to be.
Every single time we hang out,and when I try to make a conversation - he NEVER SEEMS TO FREAKING CARE . Like I’m sorry that I’m boring you with my conversation .
And the WORST . HE ALWAYS GHOSTS ME ON TEXT . In the last summer vacation , he literally GHOSTED ME . For 2 weeks straight he never replied to a single one of my texts and when he did it’s was so freaking DRY and GENERIC . We had planned to go out so many occasions in the school holidays - BUT HE ALWAYS LET DOWN. He knew that he was ghosting me as well - as he said to me plz don’t think I’m ghosting you , I’m “so stressed out “.
He’s NEVER there if I want to text or even talk about something . He takes FOREVER to reply back to me - but according to my other friends he’s always free to talk to them . Even in the summer , I asked my other friends and they said he wasn’t ghosting them .
Then this year what REALLY PUSHED ME TO THE BOUNDARY , was the I had a surgery in my back this year during the school year. The surgeon said it’s a very painful recovery and can be very lengthy . He DAMN WELL KNEW I was going for a surgery and ghosted me up till the day of my surgery. And even whilst I was recovering at home he barely would even care to check up on me on text . Like seriously , was one FREAKING TEXT that hard to make !??????
AND THE WORST - when I was recovering from surgery I found out that in school his older brother ( who doesn’t like me For NO REASON ) was texting people in my class to tell his brother ( my best friend) to cut me off . Apparently he agreed to this - he claims he didn’t . And he didn’t even tell me about this first - it was when they mentioned it after I came back to school . The fact that he couldn’t even apologise or even back me up against his brother - just really PUSHED me to edge .
I feel like sometimes I’m the only one putting the effor into the friendship - and he can’t even be bothered to At least stay in touch and appreciate the friendship .
Every time we plan to go out he ALWAYS BACKS OUT and makes some fake as* bull**** up . And as always I tell him to Dw bout it . Just recently , we made a plan 2 weeks ago to go eat out on the last day of school. And I KNEW. That he wasn’t going to turn up to school - so I purposefully told him the day before to make sure he comes to school . And we also invited our other friends- but he told them the WRONG DAY. So it really made me feel *****y on the last day of school.
I go to a very small Highschool where everyone knows each other. So it’s really feels like I want to make new friends when I go to college . I’m planning to go to a different college than all my friends - so I’m hoping to make a fresh start .
But seriously - am I bad for feeling like this