Mental Health Crisis while at Uni 2004-2006
Where can I find help with coming to terms with my mental breakdown at Uni, I couldn’t finish my work properly and actually wanted to die. I submitted half substandard work, always late and was having daily panic attacks and crying through the nights. I was lonely, paranoid and invited people to use me for money, helping with their projects and unable to enjoy my own. I was coming to terms with my childhood sexual abuse.
I didn’t know how to help myself, I was struggling with the assignments and consequently found I was dyslexic from taking the test offered. I often felt helpless and brokenhearted. Spending much of my time alone. I made a persona for myself to feel comfortable in public to come across interesting and confident, but internally I was tortured. I struggled through each assignment despite many problems with technology, lost or damaged work and was abusing alcohol to deal with the panic and stress of having to show my work in critiques.
I had some sessions with the uni counsellor but was too scared to get any other kind of help. I even had a painful kidney infection and sought treatment and suffered alone, telling no one.
Those years are like a dark cloud for me. I don’t feel I will ever be able to hold down a decent job. Let alone pay back my student loan. It hangs like a heavy weight around my neck. The student loan letters are a massive trigger, for what a failure I feel I am.
Please can you tell me where can I find understanding and advice for my situation?
Thanks for your time.
I didn’t know how to help myself, I was struggling with the assignments and consequently found I was dyslexic from taking the test offered. I often felt helpless and brokenhearted. Spending much of my time alone. I made a persona for myself to feel comfortable in public to come across interesting and confident, but internally I was tortured. I struggled through each assignment despite many problems with technology, lost or damaged work and was abusing alcohol to deal with the panic and stress of having to show my work in critiques.
I had some sessions with the uni counsellor but was too scared to get any other kind of help. I even had a painful kidney infection and sought treatment and suffered alone, telling no one.
Those years are like a dark cloud for me. I don’t feel I will ever be able to hold down a decent job. Let alone pay back my student loan. It hangs like a heavy weight around my neck. The student loan letters are a massive trigger, for what a failure I feel I am.
Please can you tell me where can I find understanding and advice for my situation?
Thanks for your time.
Hi, I am so sorry that you are struggling and want to say that one of the first major steps in getting help is recognising that you need it and asking for it!
If you are UK based I recommend looking at the Hub of Hope website (hubofhope.co.uk) which allows you to select up to 3 categories of support you are looking for (eg. advice & support, depression, urgent 24/7 crisis support) and it comes up with the various charities and organisations available in your area or nationally, from online/telephone to in-person services. The 3 catagories do not limit your options for help but narrows the search down such as support for veterans.
I wish you the best of luck and I hope you are able to get the help you need.
If you are UK based I recommend looking at the Hub of Hope website (hubofhope.co.uk) which allows you to select up to 3 categories of support you are looking for (eg. advice & support, depression, urgent 24/7 crisis support) and it comes up with the various charities and organisations available in your area or nationally, from online/telephone to in-person services. The 3 catagories do not limit your options for help but narrows the search down such as support for veterans.
I wish you the best of luck and I hope you are able to get the help you need.
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