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Y12 desperation gyg (academic comeback? I sure hope so)

Starting this gyg blog because I'm faced with a difficult decision about what I'm doing with my studies and if I want to continue into year 13 at my college I've really got to sort myself out in the next two weeks.

A bit about me
I'm 17 and in y12 at the moment.
I'm pretty sure I have autism which is a right pain when it comes to studying.
I want to go into astrophysics at the moment although particle and theoretical physics are both super interesting to me as well.
I thought for quite a while that I would go into healthcare but the lifestyle just isn't worth the pay and I find a lack of predictability super hard as it is.
I'm an absolute Harry Potter nerd.
Going to the gym and running is super cathartic to me and a big part of my life (even though i'm really bad at both).
My driving test is the first Monday after my mocks - talk about bad timing.
I love reading but don't have much time for it anymore.

My subjects:

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AQA A Level Physics

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AQA A Level Chemistry

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AQA A Level Maths

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EPQ (tbh this is my last priority at the moment)

I was also studying Edexcel SNAB A Level Biology up until last week and aim to finish it by doing a fast track either in year 13 or after I've completed year 13 because Biology is my one true love and I can't imagine not getting the qualification.

Why am i making this blog?
My mocks are in two weeks and I've just had over a month off college due to physical and mental health reasons, I might not go into college until my exams begin at this point. But, doing my mocks is the only way I will be able to continue studying at this college and I really want to avoid redoing year 12. I'm hoping this blog will keep me accountable somewhat and (fingers crossed) motivate me to actually get my arse into gear.

Predicted grades atm

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Chemistry - A

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Maths - A

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Physics - C

•

EPQ - absolutely no idea, we don't get predicted grades for this at my college

Grades I need in my mocks

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Chemistry - B (at least)

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Maths - B (also at least)

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Physics - A (this is ridiculously hopeful for 2 weeks of studying and absolutely not realistic but I guess shoot for the stars and you'll end up with a somewhat alright grade)

I'm hopefully going to log my time spent studying each day on here and whether I felt it did me any good, so I guess I'll see you all on Monday (because boy oh boy do I need the weekend to plan what the hell I'm doing with this studying crap). :bricks:

Reply 1

PerishInPeace

gosh your doing so much, if only i had the effort
hope it all goes well

Reply 2

emilynunns

Original post by PerishInPeace

gosh your doing so much, if only i had the effort
hope it all goes well

Genuinely I haven't been doing well with it - what people hide is the complete lack of life outside of school when you take on that much. I did that and now I'm paying for it, I've been forced to be off college for about 6 weeks now. Don't feel bad about yourself just because others appear to be doing more ❤️

Reply 3

emilynunns

09/06/24

Right, here’s the plan so far…

Monday
Watch some videos recapping content to try and ease myself back into academia - not going to force myself to do hours and hours, this is essentially just testing the waters at the moment. I might also go over some of the flashcards I already have made, probably writing down the answers on a whiteboard because i’m not sure I can be trusted otherwise to not just assume I knew the answer.

Tuesday
I’m going to allow this to be a rest day if I need it. If not obviously that’s a bonus but again i’m not going to force it because I don’t want to get worse again.
IF I don’t need the rest day I’ll work on making flashcards for physics I think as this is my most stubborn subject and I think i’ll be able to coast through with my other subjects (hopefully???)

Wednesday
This day I have a driving lesson but it’s late in the day so I should be able to get a little bit done. Again I want to focus on physics but if I have any spare time I’ll do some maths questions - I have yet to figure out where I’m going to get these from so I’ll have a look today and find some papers or something to print off.

Thursday
I’m also allowing this to be a rest day if needed.

Friday
This day I should begin looking through my chemistry flashcards and organising them, filling in gaps etc. but knowing me I’ll probably just want to finish off my physics flashcards so we’ll see how it plays out.

Saturday and Sunday
I’m also gonna leave these days free but as always if I want to do some work I absolutely will not hold myself back! Every little bit of revision will help. I also might be traveling up to Edinburgh for the open day on Sunday (I live too far away to just drive up on the day) which means I need to allot time for packing, travel etc.

I know that this is a very sparse revision schedule and realistically it won’t improve my grades drastically but at the moment my main priority is actually being able to function as a human being 😭

Anyways, fingers crossed this will help me get back to studying in a healthy way ✨

Reply 4

PerishInPeace

Original post by emilynunns

oh that's crazy. i guess i hadn't considered other aspects like that. i hope it goes well for the both of us. ❤️

Reply 5

emilynunns

10/06/24
Update:
Today absolutely did not go to plan in any way shape or form - it’s my grandma’s birthday today so I went to see her with my dad and ended up staying a while longer than i’d expected.
I also ended up having a fairly emotional conversation with my dad and some friend troubles after i’d gotten back home so my plan b to do some work after I got back also failed miserably.

There’s not much I can say really other than the fact that I’m now absolutely exhausted and will definitely need to rest tomorrow. So maybe i’ll manage to get some work in after that but if not i’m going to try to be kind to myself anyway (not that it ever really works regardless)

I really do hope I can get myself back into the swing of things soon.
Until tomorrow…

Reply 6

pioneering-hosti

heyy good luck with this girlie i hope you're doing alr atm and ill be proud of you no matter what yh?

Reply 7

emilynunns

15/06/24
Guys…. The last half a week or so has gone pretty awful i’m not going to lie.

Tuesday - As expected on Tuesday I did absolutely nothing because I was just exhausted. I’d gone to see my grandma the day before and I played with her dog a little bit too much, to the point where I pretty much just slept all day Tuesday. I did also go out on a driving lesson with my mum later at night.

Wednesday- I had a driving lesson with my instructor scheduled for this day but I was having a really bad day for my anxiety and just couldn’t get myself to move at all pretty much. Needless to say no college work was done.

Thursday - I pretty much did nothing again. All I did was watch chicago med and have a look at some apprenticeships.

Friday - I had another bad day, again couldn’t get up because of the anxiety and essentially just played games on my phone all day.

Saturday (today) - Today was better overall but still I haven’t done any college work yet. There’s still a bit of time left but i’m not too hopeful considering how i’ve been the past week. I also got some bad news about my driving test and overall things aren’t looking too good at the moment.

As I mentioned i’ve started looking at apprenticeships near me because the longer I wait the more I feel like there’s no way to pull through this and get to uni. But i’m really struggling with the idea of never having that social experience from uni and also the fact that if I do an apprenticeship my work will most likely always be considered to be “unskilled” - the thing that gets me most of all is that working with nasa or the esa has been my dream since I was tiny. Obviously these jobs are highly selective anyway but never having the chance is something that’s super hard to come to terms with.

I’m going to Edinburgh tomorrow for what was supposed to be a trip to the university for the open day but I honestly don’t know if I’m going to be able to face going in. And I’m also questioning whether it’s worth my effort considering I might never be able to go to university anyway the way things are going.

I’ll update you again soon but the plan is really failing guys 😓

Reply 8

RDR1 John

Original post by emilynunns

Starting this gyg blog because I'm faced with a difficult decision about what I'm doing with my studies and if I want to continue into year 13 at my college I've really got to sort myself out in the next two weeks.
A bit about me
I'm 17 and in y12 at the moment.
I'm pretty sure I have autism which is a right pain when it comes to studying.
I want to go into astrophysics at the moment although particle and theoretical physics are both super interesting to me as well.
I thought for quite a while that I would go into healthcare but the lifestyle just isn't worth the pay and I find a lack of predictability super hard as it is.
I'm an absolute Harry Potter nerd.
Going to the gym and running is super cathartic to me and a big part of my life (even though i'm really bad at both).
My driving test is the first Monday after my mocks - talk about bad timing.
I love reading but don't have much time for it anymore.
My subjects:

•

AQA A Level Physics

•

AQA A Level Chemistry

•

AQA A Level Maths

•

EPQ (tbh this is my last priority at the moment)

I was also studying Edexcel SNAB A Level Biology up until last week and aim to finish it by doing a fast track either in year 13 or after I've completed year 13 because Biology is my one true love and I can't imagine not getting the qualification.
Why am i making this blog?
My mocks are in two weeks and I've just had over a month off college due to physical and mental health reasons, I might not go into college until my exams begin at this point. But, doing my mocks is the only way I will be able to continue studying at this college and I really want to avoid redoing year 12. I'm hoping this blog will keep me accountable somewhat and (fingers crossed) motivate me to actually get my arse into gear.
Predicted grades atm

•

Chemistry - A

•

Maths - A

•

Physics - C

•

EPQ - absolutely no idea, we don't get predicted grades for this at my college

Grades I need in my mocks

•

Chemistry - B (at least)

•

Maths - B (also at least)

•

Physics - A (this is ridiculously hopeful for 2 weeks of studying and absolutely not realistic but I guess shoot for the stars and you'll end up with a somewhat alright grade)