So I play in an orchestra, I recently got a fairly new instrument and I’m really grateful for it, it’s made me feel so confident and grounded when I play at orchestra.
But then last rehearsal this guy showed me he got the same instrument as mine but the most brand new model. He was boasting about how it was better then mine and so the whole rehearsal I couldn’t focus because I kept feeling so inferior to him. I am very grateful for my instrument because it’s a great quality and was still quite pricey but his is even better and it just annoys me how he felt the need to boast about how his was better, and band new compared to mine.
The whole incident has made me dislike my new instrument which is absolutely ridiculous because it’s a big improvement to my old one. I guess I’m just, really jealous and annoyed that my newfound confidence has now been stripped away.