Weird masturbation

So, I'm 15, I've masturbated since I was 12. Lately, I find I can't get off on good sex. What I mean is, when I try imagining have wonderful sex with a man I am attracted to, it gets me super horny, but I can't seem to go over the edge. Yet I go over the edge when I imagine having awful sex with someone I am not attracted to. What is wrong with me? I want to be able to enjoy my fantasies but my brain and body apparently won't let me

What do you mean by "awful sex"?

Like, imagining the guy I'm with is not satisfying me at all

That's interesting. I've never known a girl get off on that type of fantasy. When did this pattern start? Was it caused by anything particular?

I'm not sure when it started or what caused it. I have a theory, that maybe I have some sort of degradation kink, but I don't know. Or maybe I feel guilty getting off to people I'm genuinely into so I have to use people where there's no attraction

I'm not sure when it started or what caused it. I have a theory, that maybe I have some sort of degradation kink, but I don't know. Or maybe I feel guilty getting off to people I'm genuinely into so I have to use people where there's no attraction

That's basically where I was going - that it's a degradation fantasy. I wouldn't worry about it, tbh. There are a lot worse degradation fantasies! 😆😳😆

But, what concerns me is how will that effect me when I actually have sex, because I'm still a virgin