just finished my y12 end of year mocks and i take bio, geog and chem as my a-levels
biology - was pleased with how the papers went
geography - was very pleased with how they went
chemistry - tears were forming in my eyes when sitting the papers 😭
for my course that im looking at, I need to be predicted AAA. and in bio and geog its possible to be predicted A's (touch wood)
however in chemistry, i have done badly all year. in chapter tests etc. i have been putting the effort in, i have a tutor etc and still i do badly.
i thought i could turn it around for the one big mock that matters, ie this one. and yet paper 1 was horrendous, paper 2 which i just did today was slightly less bad. our mock was the entire 2023 AS paper. so assuming they use the 2023 grade boundaries for that AS exam to grade our mocks, i am in real danger of getting a C or D or E. and oh my gosh that pains me to write. nowhere near the A i need for the course I want, to one of the russell group unis as well.
i am not going to be predicted an A in chemistry as there is no supporting evidence from chapter tests that we have done all year round, that i can actually get As. may not even be predicted a B
so best case scenario here really is AAC as predicted grades for next year.
what on earth do i do now? where do i go from here?
genuinely feel sick at the prospect that I have ruined my chance to study the course I want (which is a niche course, not offered in many unis) at a russell group uni. all while wasting the money spent by my parents on my tutoring, disappointing them, etc etc etc.