Is there something wrong with me

I gave him everything he wanted even before we were together he didn't want me to talk to any male so I didnt he didn't want me to wear certain shirts so other guy wouldn't look at me I convinced his mom to let him to play football and get a job I helped him with every homework assignment he was the first guy I ever liked but everyone calls me white washed so black guys dont like me and white boys dont find me attractive he was the boy to say I love you but he cheated on me all the time when I finally decided I did want to be more than friends after the fact he talked about my body in a very disrespectful I would move on to other guys and he would come back and say he needs me and I know he was the best thing he ever had and I would always see his mom everywhere she would always ask about what happened between us but I loved her so when I told she still continue to say hi and invite me to his games she would say things like you know how boys are he will realize what he lost this year he asked me again to be friends and just that keep in mind were in highschool and have know each other sense 6th grade I said yes but he didn't want to be friends he want to use me for my body and I let him many many times he popped up on my tiktok with another girl and i'm sad I don't know why usually I would be sad because he would get with a close friend of mine but this time I don't know the girl I know that she's beautiful and very polite I should have no reason to be sad so why am I?

He sounds like not a very nice person to be honest from An outsiders pov. I would leave him in the past ?

I gave him everything he wanted even before we were together he didn't want me to talk to any male so I didnt he didn't want me to wear certain shirts so other guy wouldn't look at me I convinced his mom to let him to play football and get a job I helped him with every homework assignment he was the first guy I ever liked but everyone calls me white washed so black guys dont like me and white boys dont find me attractive he was the boy to say I love you but he cheated on me all the time when I finally decided I did want to be more than friends after the fact he talked about my body in a very disrespectful I would move on to other guys and he would come back and say he needs me and I know he was the best thing he ever had and I would always see his mom everywhere she would always ask about what happened between us but I loved her so when I told she still continue to say hi and invite me to his games she would say things like you know how boys are he will realize what he lost this year he asked me again to be friends and just that keep in mind were in highschool and have know each other sense 6th grade I said yes but he didn't want to be friends he want to use me for my body and I let him many many times he popped up on my tiktok with another girl and i'm sad I don't know why usually I would be sad because he would get with a close friend of mine but this time I don't know the girl I know that she's beautiful and very polite I should have no reason to be sad so why am I?

Yea do not a nice guy simple as

There's nothing wrong with you, he was just a bad boyfriend.

Didn't feel like that when we met

Of course you wouldn't have, you'd only just met him. These things become apparent over time, you really can't know straight away. Don't kick yourself about it.