I'm sure I'm no where near the first to make this kind of post.
I've been feeling anxious for weeks about entering university -- which won't even begin until three months from now! So I've truly been trying everything to help me feel ready.
I'm engaging with my hobbies -- Literature, which is the course I've applied to. I'm affirmed every day that literature is something I will always be passionate about. I do not worry about my place in the course at all.
I've never struggled with making/maintaining friendships (although admittedly I do not have many simply because I'm introverted). I think it's unlikely I won't be able to make in-person friends at uni. Even if I don't, I have friends online and can always make phone calls.
I did a lot of research into the uni that I've chosen and been accepted into - it suits me in every particular, I know that this is the place for me. I've visited the town and even met all the literature staff. I read their blog. There are very few unknowns. Yet...
I know that there will be a difficult adjustment period, and I'll cry, no matter how ready I've felt for months to be at this uni. I'll have to get used to a lot of new things and it will be a lot to take on. But I also want to overcome this and find a place and even a second home here where I can devote myself to my studies and my passion even more.
I have been so anxious about it nonetheless; losing sleep, and when I wake up I do not feel rested. It's been harder engaging with my passions because I feel the constant anxiety with me, which I haven't felt in years. I understand rationally that I can overcome anything but my heart is not convinced. I've tried everything I would normally try and so I come here. I'm sure there are many who relate to my position, and I'm hoping for some reassurance.