Rant - Any religious Muslims applying to uni this year just not feeling it?
Yeah I have to go uni ig because of family circumstances regarding a few things. But I just don’t wanna go mannn. The fitna the “freedom” the fasad the fear, fitting in almost nowhere
Even hijabis dont want to talk to me, I used to be a harami (depressed and suicidal one) and people loved me (ew, terrible choice from them) but I changed alhamdhulillah about a year and a half ago now Im “too extreme” and people just frown upon my existence
That hurts me because i used to do such disgusting messed up things openly when i was a harami but now wearing long clothes, avoiding backbiting, not wearing makeup, not chatting w men, not swearing, not being mean, not listening to music is enough for people to hate me lol the hypocrisy look at it
I feel like me taking up volume in a room is too much for them and that im annoying them so much by just doing that
It’s been my dream so long to wear niqab but i dont even know how im gonna get by as the hijabi i am rn 😢 I just get sosoososo lonely like I can’t even imagine people talking to me at an Isoc, im the last person in the room people talk to usually
I post on WhatsApp statuses something then delete it after a few hours because i feel like im annoying and ccringey 😭 who do I talk tooooo
On open days staff just seemed to hate me and the looks i got from some people just made me cry and feel so isolated, this (academic i think?) guy at Bristol made me cry because he just so deliberately seemed to speak to me as if he didn’t want me there even tho i was being so nice compared to the blonde non-hijabi girls and he said things that would make me not want to go Bristol
My catholic sixth form I just left was so upsetting like i feel like a diversity hire ygm. But i feel chucked away and unsupported and frowned upon and like a nuisance for existing just because i look different and dress different and act different. I can’t even be lonely in peace lol i just end up hating myself
I went there in secondary and proved myself by getting good gcse grades but yeah once I get religious it seems like that is chucked in the bin from their brains, teachers dont like me anymore and think it is okay to treat me like trash
I dont want to move out because ill probably miss my family and have ocd problems and waswas but i still feel like im gonna be lonely ig and im also scared of self driving and public transport too
I didn’t know i was this sensitive until exam time lol it just built up. Alhamdhulillah exams now over
My relationship with Allah got so much lesser in exam time I feel so distant and i waste time sm more now. Since the situation in Gaza escalated more i just wasted so much time on the news crying and being stupid and i find it so hard to focus, to make it worse, teachers at my school make me so angry I sometimes want to cry just thinking about seeing them on results day, how can they be so heartless and make such disgusting comments about Muslims
The Zio and Islamophobic things said in my school are so heartless, teachers and students alike
I just feel like im too mentally unstable to socialise in summary, im so sensitive and lonely and i dont know how im gonna cope with a PHYSICS DEGREE idk what else to study
Please make dua for me guys
Even hijabis dont want to talk to me, I used to be a harami (depressed and suicidal one) and people loved me (ew, terrible choice from them) but I changed alhamdhulillah about a year and a half ago now Im “too extreme” and people just frown upon my existence
That hurts me because i used to do such disgusting messed up things openly when i was a harami but now wearing long clothes, avoiding backbiting, not wearing makeup, not chatting w men, not swearing, not being mean, not listening to music is enough for people to hate me lol the hypocrisy look at it
I feel like me taking up volume in a room is too much for them and that im annoying them so much by just doing that
It’s been my dream so long to wear niqab but i dont even know how im gonna get by as the hijabi i am rn 😢 I just get sosoososo lonely like I can’t even imagine people talking to me at an Isoc, im the last person in the room people talk to usually
I post on WhatsApp statuses something then delete it after a few hours because i feel like im annoying and ccringey 😭 who do I talk tooooo
On open days staff just seemed to hate me and the looks i got from some people just made me cry and feel so isolated, this (academic i think?) guy at Bristol made me cry because he just so deliberately seemed to speak to me as if he didn’t want me there even tho i was being so nice compared to the blonde non-hijabi girls and he said things that would make me not want to go Bristol
My catholic sixth form I just left was so upsetting like i feel like a diversity hire ygm. But i feel chucked away and unsupported and frowned upon and like a nuisance for existing just because i look different and dress different and act different. I can’t even be lonely in peace lol i just end up hating myself
I went there in secondary and proved myself by getting good gcse grades but yeah once I get religious it seems like that is chucked in the bin from their brains, teachers dont like me anymore and think it is okay to treat me like trash
I dont want to move out because ill probably miss my family and have ocd problems and waswas but i still feel like im gonna be lonely ig and im also scared of self driving and public transport too
I didn’t know i was this sensitive until exam time lol it just built up. Alhamdhulillah exams now over
My relationship with Allah got so much lesser in exam time I feel so distant and i waste time sm more now. Since the situation in Gaza escalated more i just wasted so much time on the news crying and being stupid and i find it so hard to focus, to make it worse, teachers at my school make me so angry I sometimes want to cry just thinking about seeing them on results day, how can they be so heartless and make such disgusting comments about Muslims
The Zio and Islamophobic things said in my school are so heartless, teachers and students alike
I just feel like im too mentally unstable to socialise in summary, im so sensitive and lonely and i dont know how im gonna cope with a PHYSICS DEGREE idk what else to study
Please make dua for me guys
You need to calm down, focus on your goals and ignore the people. This is a simple solution to almost all problems. Listen to me carefully, you need to think about your FUTURE and not about people around you. Ask yourself this question "what am I going to do in the coming 5 or 6 or 10 years?" Do you have a clear answer to this question eh? I guess not.
(edited 8 months ago)
I feel like when you do get to uni you'll know that not many people actually care what others do or how they look or anything like that. People normally just go to actually study and get their work done. That was the case for me anyway! Also maybe you are overthinking everything and should take everyday as it comes. If you feel distant from your religion maybe try small steps towards going back into it? Praying one namaz a day is better than none right? It's all a learning process. Believe me, Allah(swt) appreciates it more when you're genuinely doing it from the heart and not just for the sake of it
This might not be the best advice but I'd rather say something than just remain silent. Your circumstances are unfortunate but I also think you've let it get to your head (trust me it's happened to me before) just try to first clear your mind and try to relax because it seems like you're always tense which is understandable due to the things you've mentioned but genuinely just try to relax. You have to realise that not everyone in the world is like that, yes there's bad people but most people don't think like that and even if they do then they most likely won't act on it so don't worry about these sort of things in happening in public or uni or elsewhere. If you move away for uni then try to pick a city you'll feel comfortable in. You have to realise that most of it is in your head because of the negativity you faced on a daily basis, trust me my high school was really racist and I kind of ended up in this position where I felt so tense in public and that everyone was judging me but honestly it was just in my head. Also, I should remind you that Allah says in the Quran that he will test us for being Muslim - Do people think once they say, “We believe,” that they will be left without being put to the test? (29:2). I hope this helps and feel free to reach out if you need anyone to speak to, I'm sure you can make friends with many nice people on here if that helps and pls try to take a moment to relax and just let go because I feel like your mind is just focusing on the negatives right now and nothing else. Hope that helps . Also, just wanted to say that I can't even begin to imagine how difficult it must be for the sisters to wear the hijab but pls don't give up on it.
. Also, just wanted to say that I can't even begin to imagine how difficult it must be for the sisters to wear the hijab but pls don't give up on it.Are there any other specific examples of discrimination you've faced? From how you're describing it, it could be a bigger issue
mashallah, it is soo amazing how you have changed and for that Allah loves you soo much. But because he loves you he will test you a lot too. This is your test, as long as you dont let other people get into your head and make you change yourself for the worst, you will pass with flying colours inshallah. But dont worry, tests in our lives always fluctuate, it may seem like your life is hell right now, but soon it will all be over. For me wearing a hijab was difficult at the start, but i dont let anyone tell me to change myself, because i know that im right in what im doing, and if i can keep it up for a few 50-60 years inshallah, then i can live in peace and happiness for the rest of eternity, and those who judged me and discriminated and hated me for what i did probably wont have the same fate. and i assure you that uni will be so much easier inshallah, depending on which one you go to, but many of them have a very large muslim population, and many societies you can join.
If you ever feel depressed and lonely, always turn to Allah, trust me, he has helped me soo much when i needed him, and Allah loves it when people turn to him in times of need. tasbih always help me calm down and remember my faith.
I will remember you in my dua, and if you ever need to speak to someone, feel free to message me.
If you ever feel depressed and lonely, always turn to Allah, trust me, he has helped me soo much when i needed him, and Allah loves it when people turn to him in times of need. tasbih always help me calm down and remember my faith.
I will remember you in my dua, and if you ever need to speak to someone, feel free to message me.
(edited 8 months ago)
Original post by username6600387
Yeah I have to go uni ig because of family circumstances regarding a few things. But I just don’t wanna go mannn. The fitna the “freedom” the fasad the fear, fitting in almost nowhere
Even hijabis dont want to talk to me, I used to be a harami (depressed and suicidal one) and people loved me (ew, terrible choice from them) but I changed alhamdhulillah about a year and a half ago now Im “too extreme” and people just frown upon my existence
That hurts me because i used to do such disgusting messed up things openly when i was a harami but now wearing long clothes, avoiding backbiting, not wearing makeup, not chatting w men, not swearing, not being mean, not listening to music is enough for people to hate me lol the hypocrisy look at it
I feel like me taking up volume in a room is too much for them and that im annoying them so much by just doing that
It’s been my dream so long to wear niqab but i dont even know how im gonna get by as the hijabi i am rn 😢 I just get sosoososo lonely like I can’t even imagine people talking to me at an Isoc, im the last person in the room people talk to usually
I post on WhatsApp statuses something then delete it after a few hours because i feel like im annoying and ccringey 😭 who do I talk tooooo
On open days staff just seemed to hate me and the looks i got from some people just made me cry and feel so isolated, this (academic i think?) guy at Bristol made me cry because he just so deliberately seemed to speak to me as if he didn’t want me there even tho i was being so nice compared to the blonde non-hijabi girls and he said things that would make me not want to go Bristol
My catholic sixth form I just left was so upsetting like i feel like a diversity hire ygm. But i feel chucked away and unsupported and frowned upon and like a nuisance for existing just because i look different and dress different and act different. I can’t even be lonely in peace lol i just end up hating myself
I went there in secondary and proved myself by getting good gcse grades but yeah once I get religious it seems like that is chucked in the bin from their brains, teachers dont like me anymore and think it is okay to treat me like trash
I dont want to move out because ill probably miss my family and have ocd problems and waswas but i still feel like im gonna be lonely ig and im also scared of self driving and public transport too
I didn’t know i was this sensitive until exam time lol it just built up. Alhamdhulillah exams now over
My relationship with Allah got so much lesser in exam time I feel so distant and i waste time sm more now. Since the situation in Gaza escalated more i just wasted so much time on the news crying and being stupid and i find it so hard to focus, to make it worse, teachers at my school make me so angry I sometimes want to cry just thinking about seeing them on results day, how can they be so heartless and make such disgusting comments about Muslims
The Zio and Islamophobic things said in my school are so heartless, teachers and students alike
I just feel like im too mentally unstable to socialise in summary, im so sensitive and lonely and i dont know how im gonna cope with a PHYSICS DEGREE idk what else to study
Please make dua for me guys
Even hijabis dont want to talk to me, I used to be a harami (depressed and suicidal one) and people loved me (ew, terrible choice from them) but I changed alhamdhulillah about a year and a half ago now Im “too extreme” and people just frown upon my existence
That hurts me because i used to do such disgusting messed up things openly when i was a harami but now wearing long clothes, avoiding backbiting, not wearing makeup, not chatting w men, not swearing, not being mean, not listening to music is enough for people to hate me lol the hypocrisy look at it
I feel like me taking up volume in a room is too much for them and that im annoying them so much by just doing that
It’s been my dream so long to wear niqab but i dont even know how im gonna get by as the hijabi i am rn 😢 I just get sosoososo lonely like I can’t even imagine people talking to me at an Isoc, im the last person in the room people talk to usually
I post on WhatsApp statuses something then delete it after a few hours because i feel like im annoying and ccringey 😭 who do I talk tooooo
On open days staff just seemed to hate me and the looks i got from some people just made me cry and feel so isolated, this (academic i think?) guy at Bristol made me cry because he just so deliberately seemed to speak to me as if he didn’t want me there even tho i was being so nice compared to the blonde non-hijabi girls and he said things that would make me not want to go Bristol
My catholic sixth form I just left was so upsetting like i feel like a diversity hire ygm. But i feel chucked away and unsupported and frowned upon and like a nuisance for existing just because i look different and dress different and act different. I can’t even be lonely in peace lol i just end up hating myself
I went there in secondary and proved myself by getting good gcse grades but yeah once I get religious it seems like that is chucked in the bin from their brains, teachers dont like me anymore and think it is okay to treat me like trash
I dont want to move out because ill probably miss my family and have ocd problems and waswas but i still feel like im gonna be lonely ig and im also scared of self driving and public transport too
I didn’t know i was this sensitive until exam time lol it just built up. Alhamdhulillah exams now over
My relationship with Allah got so much lesser in exam time I feel so distant and i waste time sm more now. Since the situation in Gaza escalated more i just wasted so much time on the news crying and being stupid and i find it so hard to focus, to make it worse, teachers at my school make me so angry I sometimes want to cry just thinking about seeing them on results day, how can they be so heartless and make such disgusting comments about Muslims
The Zio and Islamophobic things said in my school are so heartless, teachers and students alike
I just feel like im too mentally unstable to socialise in summary, im so sensitive and lonely and i dont know how im gonna cope with a PHYSICS DEGREE idk what else to study
Please make dua for me guys
Don't worry about what anyone says or thinks about you. Honestly, I am so glad that you have stopped being a "harami"
and have changed. This Dunya is too short to be worrying about what other people think of you. Keep your head down and study and Insha'Allah, Allah will grant you Jannah.
In Sahih Muslim, the Prophet is believed to have said "this world is a prison for the believer and Jannah for the disbelievers". Don't take what people think to heart.
If you want to chat to someone, feel free to PM me
Stay strong 💪
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