First thing to do is not panic. Maths is a daunting subject but anyone can do well at it. With regards to textbooks, many,are freely available online along with lots of other resources. I would recommend the AS edexcel book. It is blue and has year 1 on the front. It is fairly cheap but could definitely be found for free online. It is good that you want to start revising yourself. It will be challenging but also rewarding. Try not to worry about your past relationship with maths. When you start at AS level, it is pretty self contained so as long as you do plenty of practice and stick at it, you will do really well.
Good luck.