Scared of the 15th - alevels

I've never been smart. I'm scared for results day. I worked so hard.
All I can remember is that I left half my paper for maths out, and just kept running out of time for every exam. I can't even tell myself to have faith bc realistically, I know I've done badly. There was no point in me revising bc I'm going to fail.
But my parents keep saying that everything will be alright and that I will go to uni no matter what in september and I'll do clearing if anything went wrong. But I keep bringing up how clearing doesn't guarantee a spot for my course and I may have to retake to be on the safer side but they don't take this for an answer. I told them about apprenticeships but they also said no. They only want me going to uni, not just my parents but my whole family said I should and even when i was doing work experience, everyone recommended uni.
I don't really enjoy anything in life, my mental health has always been low so I don't find myself doing activities that make me happy so I just do as they tell me to do. University just sounds like a living hell, the accommodation sounds horrible, the socializing sounds horrible, the tuition fees sound horrible. I can't recommend anything to my parents either because again, nothing seems or sounds enjoyable so i'm just doing as they say because I don't have the energy to argue anymore.
Results day just scares me because I don't know what to expect from my parents. They probably won't speak to me again. I'll probably get a CDE or something. Again, i'm not being hard on myself, i'm being realistic. My brother always called be dumb and that i'm an idiot and Its going to be the last straw for me when I hear my whole family call me that. plz help

Whats worse is that all my friends keep telling me that we should do something on results day. They keep saying over and over again and I keep saying no. I don't know how to make it any clearer. When I get my results, I do think i'm just going to leave without looking back. I like my friends but my mental health will definitely be taking the biggest toll

don’t worry i’m terrified for results i missed out over a business exam due to panic attacks and i know the other two exams for that subject didn’t go well either i’m fully expecting an E or U
why doesn’t university appeal to you? what is it that you hate about the halls and the socialising etc? maybe if you can pinpoint the hatred and get answers for it, it may ease your mindset?
it sounds like university may benefit you in a sense to get away from an atmosphere that seems to be dragging you down though
i don’t have the best mental health either to be quite honest so i know how you feel, im trying to get medication to help ease my anxiety while at uni to prevent it from inhibiting and ruining my shot at a fresh start in a new environment with new people

You can always take a gap year to work on mental health or find another uni close to home that’ll offer you a place. Possibly foundation year if it really comes to that
It’s not the end of the world. Retakes are always possible.
Jeremy Clarkson got CUU and he is still successful. Truly there are so many options.
Have you also considered an apprenticeship maybe?

It's just mainly the people I'm going to be staying with. I've tried talking and making new friends but i swear everyone just isn't interested and I always get that vibe that no one actually wants me around. The 2 closest friends I have are people that have the same interests and humour as me and they've stuck around for 6 years. I'm scared that I'll never find someone like that and just be alone. Socializing is just so stressful and I whenever I find myself putting more effort into a relationship than the other person(like they're giving me short answers), I just shut down because I'm just exhausted of being the only one trying. I hate the idea that people may like me because I'm convenient to live with rather than liking me for who I am - if that makes any sense. I always get so scared and unless the person is trying to talk to me, I'll basically just go mute for as long as I can.

If you are definitely thinking of going, i’ll assure you and say It’ll be easier at university as everyone is in the exact same boat, it’s the one time in life everyone is new together and doesn’t know a soul, completely different to starting secondary school or college as most go with their friend groups, at university people go where suits them best. It takes time to make good friends but it’ll be easier here than in an office where there are already established friend groups etc. Join societies as well because you will find people who are into similar interests as you and it’s a great way to get to know people, everyone I know who didn’t join societies regretted it.
Just try to be friendly as best as you can and join group chats, not many are overly friendly yet i’ve found as well, my flatmates haven’t spoken even though ive tried but some people are better to talk to in the flesh.
Which university are you thinking of going to? I’ll try and find some group chats if you aren’t in any already 🙂

Should the "worst" comes to worse, University is not tve be all and end all. Have you considerd the Armed Forces? Many career options, some excellent apprenticeships! Build up you physical health, mental resilience and good skills, and get a bit of money that cpuld go towards university at a later date. Or perhaps something a little different like the Merchant Navy? (Potential Tax-Free sallery 6 months on - 6 months off). Or perhaps you do get though clearing! Don't tunnel vision yourself to only one option - you're young, you've got loads of time