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what do i do

me and my boyfriend have been together for just over a year. we have had arguments where i have walked out the house and got in each others faces but never anymore. the other night i put my phone down to go to sleep and he was already asleep. i nudged his leg so i could put mine there since my dog was next to my feet. he shot bolt upright out of his sleep and said “what the **** is your problem” “what’s wrong with you”. i was confused and like wtf?? we went back and forth petty arguing. then he told me i’m like every other girl and i just want drama. so i turned my back to him and just started at the wall. he kept saying my name over and over again and then started tapping my head so i sat up and we just continued the petty argument. he then turned away and started ignoring me so i did the same thing. then he flipped over really fast and grabbed my wrist really hard and held it there for what felt like ages. he said “don’t tap me in my ******* head” over and over whilst i was explaining that he did the exact same thing to me. we stopped for a second and i had just realised what he did (i was in an physically,mentally,verbally,sexually abusive relationship before so it set off alarms in my head) i started crying and panicking. he told me to shut up and that i wouldn’t be getting his sympathy. he eventually pulled me for a hug and said it was instinct. (he had also been abused by his parents) but he should still never grab me like that. he’s 6,2 and fairly large and i’m 5,4 and particularly skinny. we also had another incident a few months back where i was asleep and he just punched me in the stomach for no reason. that was the only time he had intentionally hurt me. even then he had no explanation and said he was confused. what do i do? i’m worried it will escalate and want to get out before it does if that is abuse. please help.

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PileaP

Really sorry to read about your difficult situation, Women's aid are a UK based charity that may be able to provide you with advice- they have a live chat and email function, in addition to a chat forum: Women's Aid