I never had a plan from S3 on what i wanted to do career wise but over the years i’ve found myself interested in medicine. It started with Greys Anatomy which i know is silly(i started watching it for the drama but stayed for the medicine lol) i know it isn’t accurate to how medicine is, and lots of people do romanticise medicine in general. I ended up dismissing the idea because i hadn’t picked nat5 chemistry and i thought i didn’t have a chance. In my highers i got all As and i’ve done biology and maths but ive never thought of myself as someone that’s smart in stem subjects because i always see people do much better than me.
However, a part of me still wants to know if I could do it. I’m so fascinated by medicine there’s just so much knowledge that doctors have and so much they can do to change lives in the best way possible.
I know Advanced Highers are also needed and then there’s also the UCAT which honestly i can’t wrap my head around. I feel like i would have to take a gap year to take the ucat properly without rushing it and to gain work experience. The only uni i feel like i could have a chance getting into is Aberdeen.
Do you think i could study higher chemistry in s6 and understand it enough? Or am i just holding onto false hope? After my higher results i feel like ive got this boost of confidence but i dont want to be wrong about this and regret everything. I would probably try and switch to AH maths and bio and higher chem as school starts and it scares me how i actually feel like i could do it. Because im not someone who’s always been great and bio or math.
It’s all so frustrating because i want to do so many things but im so scared that if i don't try doing medicine ill regret it. But i also fear rejection and disappointing ppl. Its between this and computing science which i can say i have a better chance at but i definitely don't feel as passionate for.
Any genuine advice that can guide me to the best decision would be appreciated. If there’s actually no way doing medicine, taking a gap year, doing chem etc isn’t a good idea and probably just going to ruin my mental health then be honest 🥲