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not feeling emotions physically anymore

sorry for this long post and i might sound really silly or pathetic idk but pls hear me out and if anyone knows wtf is wrong with me pls let me know. basically usually i am a person who feels emotions very deeply and physically, for example when i am sad usually my heart would actually ache (sounds like an exaggeration but i promise you it isn’t), for example when i went through a breakup, or even after watching a sad show or movie, and after having an argument with someone i care about. this is the same with happiness, when i’m happy i usually feel this light bubbly feeling in my chest and i feel warm on the inside.
but for i would say 2 (or one and a half?) months i dont feel anything in my heart anymore. and it’s scaring so so so bad. like here and there i would feel like a weird blocked feeling???? but when i get sad all i do is cry but i feel NOTHING physically and its so weird and its not something im used to because like i mentioned before i used to feel emotions so immensely, even with happiness, a few weeks ago i went to my favourite place in the seaside to see if i was going to get that warm bubbly and light feeling i always get in my chest when i go, but i felt nothing, only a weird blockage, kind of like the feeling i get where i feel sad but much lighter and more uncomfortable. im not used to this and its scaring me so much, today i had a situation that really upset me and all i could do is cry, but i didnt feel anything on the inside. i also saw a guy i really love and normally when i’m around him i feel immense love in my heart, and once again nothing today.

i looked up on google to see if it was a medical thing and all it said is that this is emotional numbness which happens after trauma, stress or during depression. which is very confusing because i really dont think i am depressed?? sounds a bit weird to say this but i am grateful for my life and dont really have much to be depressed about (hope this doesnt sound offensive). the only thing i can think of was alevels which i finished ab 2 months ago, i mean i noticed this whole thing after i finished my exams, but i still dont think it was because of them, yes they were a bit stressful but i dont think stressful enough to turn me this numb??? the thing is that results day is this week and i have not had the ability to feel stress or fear because once again these are things i would feel in my heartt / chest, and like i said 100 times already i can’t feel anything there, apart from a weird blocked feeling like once a week for a whole day.
pls if there is a professional on here please tell me what this could be and how i could fix this, i really don’t know how i will continue living like this because i genuinely think this will stop me from forming emotional connections with family and friends which is something i am terrified of. thank you.

Reply 1

artful_lounger

Universities Forum Helper

I'd probably suggest talking to your GP about it :smile:

Reply 2

Anonymous #1

Original post by artful_lounger

I'd probably suggest talking to your GP about it :smile:

so you think it’s that serious? man idk if i’ll even get an appointment

Reply 3

artful_lounger

Universities Forum Helper

Original post by Anonymous

so you think it’s that serious? man idk if i’ll even get an appointment

Well the point of going to the GP is that they can tell you if it's serious or not - that's their job!

You will get an appointment at some point. It may not be for a few weeks but provided you keep calling back to see what new appointments are available if they're full up to the end of their current diary period, you'll get slotted in somewhere.