DISCLAIMER: This Post is really long, probably. So if you don't want to waste like 5 minutes of your time reading this, I suggest you dont.
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Idk if anyone's ever going to see/read this but i'm really hoping someone does because I need all the advice I can get right now.
So I'm starting Year 11 in september and I've spent my whole year 10 NOT taking it seriously. I've tried but my academic comeback has failed 3 times and it shows in my latest report 😭😭.
My Highest Predicated Grades ranged from a 6 - 7 + a High Merit for BTEC and those were only for English, History and Drama. The Rest range from 5 - 3 which include Maths (a 4), Re (I think a 5 or 4), Computer Science (5), Combined Science (3) and Food Nutrition (4).
I was really shocked for Maths and Food though as I did try really hard in my mocks and I genuinely revised so hard for Maths as I knew I was struggling alot with most of the topics. Computer Science Also because I did NOT try hard at all in the paper 😭😭 so I don't even know how I even scraped a 5.
But the whole point is that now the reports motivated me to lock in and actually try before gcses come round the corner because i know this year will go quick and try to get the grades I want. I know it's midway into the summer holidays and im technically still in year 10 so I should be chilling and not stressing too much but I just can't shake off the feeling that I might not do well and that this is the downfall of my actual GCSE grades.
Especially because in November, YR11 mocks start and those are the grades I'll need to hand in to sixthform/college, I dont think I'll be able to cover the whole year 10 course again in time for november mocks 😭😭 + study the topics we start to learn in the beginning if YR 11.
I really want to get into this sixth form called Woodhouse College and I don't know if i'll be able to get the grades in the november mocks to be able to send in for when the applications open. All I want to get is 6 and above right now for all subjects by mocks and I really dont know if its possible 😭😭. I can get a 6 for maths but since I got a 4 in my report, I might get placed in foundation and I REALLY want to do higher for maths (Literally all I want). A 6 for Science is a stretch though. 💀
My Biggest Weakness is my procrastination. I'm telling you NO ONE can procrastinate as much as me and I will constantly disappoint myself after not doing whats needed to be done but continue to do the same again and again. My other weaknesses are my overthinking and the fact that i have such terrible memory loss. I will literally forget something ive learned like a day ago and have to go learn other stuff. - Mainly the reason why I hate maths.
I also dont know how to revise stuff. Like when people say find the best way you revise, I literally can't. I don't know what my best way is and i'm usually learning the topics rather than even revising.
If anyone, ANYONE has good advice or is even willing to help me during my GCSE journey. I would be so grateful. Really.
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Thank you so much for reading, if you even got this far. 😭😭 My hands hurt so much from typing. I will also be posting from time to time to update (if anyone is even willing to read the posts) and try to show my progress all the way to GCSES (like a blog) because I'm genuinely going to lock in. GENUINELY I SWEAR.