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That must have been so stressful best of luck with your ps and TMUA! You got this xx

i'm feeling the worst i've felt in a while. productivity-wise, i'm doing ok. i've done another couple of TMUA past papers and I'm improving, but I'm definitely better at paper 2 and have a long way to go before i'm happy with my scores. i got a 3.4 on the paper 1 i did today..not ideal. i got an 8.7 on paper 2 though, so an overall 6.1!! i'm aiming for at least a 7.
health-wise, life isn't going so good. i had a blood test done in august because i was getting these weird rashes everywhere and my esr came out high which apparently means i have high levels of inflammation in my body.. my doctor said it might be a fluke and it could just be because i had a cold or something (even tho i don't think i did). i got another test done a month later and guess what? my esr is even higher. my family and i are thinking it could be arthritis, which sucks. i've had joint pain since 2022 but i guess i kind of assumed it was because of fnd which is stupid, because even when most of my fnd symptoms have gone away my joint pain has stayed. it's getting worse. i'm now not just in pain, but my joints feel so stiff it feels difficult to type. not ideal when i have to deal with a time-pressured essay-based subject like economics and i've been denied access to a laptop for exams. typing is difficult, but writing is so much harder. i'm not enjoying pilates as much because i just feel useless when i can't do all the things i used to be able to do because my joints won't cooperate. i'm in so much pain right now, it's not even funny. my doctor said to book an emergency appointment with him, i guess he's slightly concerned my inflammation has gone up since we were expecting it to go down. i can't remember the last time i wasn't in pain, and that sucks. i hate that my body is doing this to me. don't get me wrong, i'm super grateful i'm not in a wheelchair again, but it sucks to see your friends doing so much sporty stuff when i can't do anything. my friend wants to book a holiday with me but i don't want to say yes, even tho i want to go. i'm scared i'll be ill and won't be able to go, so i'd rather just not book it. i don't want to ruin my friend's holiday if i'm too sick to do everything she wants to do.
anywayy that's my little pity rant if u read all of that here's your prize:

Well done on the improvements to the TMUA Sorry to hear you're not feeling too well health-wise. I wish you the best

i'm feeling the worst i've felt in a while. productivity-wise, i'm doing ok. i've done another couple of TMUA past papers and I'm improving, but I'm definitely better at paper 2 and have a long way to go before i'm happy with my scores. i got a 3.4 on the paper 1 i did today..not ideal. i got an 8.7 on paper 2 though, so an overall 6.1!! i'm aiming for at least a 7.
health-wise, life isn't going so good. i had a blood test done in august because i was getting these weird rashes everywhere and my esr came out high which apparently means i have high levels of inflammation in my body.. my doctor said it might be a fluke and it could just be because i had a cold or something (even tho i don't think i did). i got another test done a month later and guess what? my esr is even higher. my family and i are thinking it could be arthritis, which sucks. i've had joint pain since 2022 but i guess i kind of assumed it was because of fnd which is stupid, because even when most of my fnd symptoms have gone away my joint pain has stayed. it's getting worse. i'm now not just in pain, but my joints feel so stiff it feels difficult to type. not ideal when i have to deal with a time-pressured essay-based subject like economics and i've been denied access to a laptop for exams. typing is difficult, but writing is so much harder. i'm not enjoying pilates as much because i just feel useless when i can't do all the things i used to be able to do because my joints won't cooperate. i'm in so much pain right now, it's not even funny. my doctor said to book an emergency appointment with him, i guess he's slightly concerned my inflammation has gone up since we were expecting it to go down. i can't remember the last time i wasn't in pain, and that sucks. i hate that my body is doing this to me. don't get me wrong, i'm super grateful i'm not in a wheelchair again, but it sucks to see your friends doing so much sporty stuff when i can't do anything. my friend wants to book a holiday with me but i don't want to say yes, even tho i want to go. i'm scared i'll be ill and won't be able to go, so i'd rather just not book it. i don't want to ruin my friend's holiday if i'm too sick to do everything she wants to do.
anywayy that's my little pity rant if u read all of that here's your prize:

i'm feeling the worst i've felt in a while. productivity-wise, i'm doing ok. i've done another couple of TMUA past papers and I'm improving, but I'm definitely better at paper 2 and have a long way to go before i'm happy with my scores. i got a 3.4 on the paper 1 i did today..not ideal. i got an 8.7 on paper 2 though, so an overall 6.1!! i'm aiming for at least a 7.
health-wise, life isn't going so good. i had a blood test done in august because i was getting these weird rashes everywhere and my esr came out high which apparently means i have high levels of inflammation in my body.. my doctor said it might be a fluke and it could just be because i had a cold or something (even tho i don't think i did). i got another test done a month later and guess what? my esr is even higher. my family and i are thinking it could be arthritis, which sucks. i've had joint pain since 2022 but i guess i kind of assumed it was because of fnd which is stupid, because even when most of my fnd symptoms have gone away my joint pain has stayed. it's getting worse. i'm now not just in pain, but my joints feel so stiff it feels difficult to type. not ideal when i have to deal with a time-pressured essay-based subject like economics and i've been denied access to a laptop for exams. typing is difficult, but writing is so much harder. i'm not enjoying pilates as much because i just feel useless when i can't do all the things i used to be able to do because my joints won't cooperate. i'm in so much pain right now, it's not even funny. my doctor said to book an emergency appointment with him, i guess he's slightly concerned my inflammation has gone up since we were expecting it to go down. i can't remember the last time i wasn't in pain, and that sucks. i hate that my body is doing this to me. don't get me wrong, i'm super grateful i'm not in a wheelchair again, but it sucks to see your friends doing so much sporty stuff when i can't do anything. my friend wants to book a holiday with me but i don't want to say yes, even tho i want to go. i'm scared i'll be ill and won't be able to go, so i'd rather just not book it. i don't want to ruin my friend's holiday if i'm too sick to do everything she wants to do.
anywayy that's my little pity rant if u read all of that here's your prize:

Bless you - arthritis is no joke - hopefully you can find something to ease the pain xx and I don't see why they won't give you the exam arrangements - simply unfair.

aw i’m so sorry to hear this, i wish you all the best and it’s probs not best thing to travel right now just try take care of yourself. Pain doesn’t last forever

hopefully if i manage to get a diagnosis they might let me have a laptop or something! i'm not 100% sure if it is arthritis but i just don't think it's fnd so i want to know what's causing my pain

That's valid. Fingers crossed it all goes well xx

Life update! I've mostly been working on my personal statement since my school has set a deadline of Friday. I went to the GP today and I have to have another blood test done to check for inflammatory markers specific to arthritis..we'll see what happens! Learning support at my school said I can use laptops for my exams if I have a doctor's note but my GP said he can't write me a note unless the school sends a letter to request it, but he can just give me the consultation notes from all my appointments so hopefully my school will accept that?? Typing in exams would be so much less painful for me so I hope everything works out!!

hope they accept them & that the results of your blood tests aren't awful..
exam support are so silly in my school too, i requested a smaller room & rest breaks but they never got back to me abt it :<

i'm feeling the worst i've felt in a while. productivity-wise, i'm doing ok. i've done another couple of TMUA past papers and I'm improving, but I'm definitely better at paper 2 and have a long way to go before i'm happy with my scores. i got a 3.4 on the paper 1 i did today..not ideal. i got an 8.7 on paper 2 though, so an overall 6.1!! i'm aiming for at least a 7.
health-wise, life isn't going so good. i had a blood test done in august because i was getting these weird rashes everywhere and my esr came out high which apparently means i have high levels of inflammation in my body.. my doctor said it might be a fluke and it could just be because i had a cold or something (even tho i don't think i did). i got another test done a month later and guess what? my esr is even higher. my family and i are thinking it could be arthritis, which sucks. i've had joint pain since 2022 but i guess i kind of assumed it was because of fnd which is stupid, because even when most of my fnd symptoms have gone away my joint pain has stayed. it's getting worse. i'm now not just in pain, but my joints feel so stiff it feels difficult to type. not ideal when i have to deal with a time-pressured essay-based subject like economics and i've been denied access to a laptop for exams. typing is difficult, but writing is so much harder. i'm not enjoying pilates as much because i just feel useless when i can't do all the things i used to be able to do because my joints won't cooperate. i'm in so much pain right now, it's not even funny. my doctor said to book an emergency appointment with him, i guess he's slightly concerned my inflammation has gone up since we were expecting it to go down. i can't remember the last time i wasn't in pain, and that sucks. i hate that my body is doing this to me. don't get me wrong, i'm super grateful i'm not in a wheelchair again, but it sucks to see your friends doing so much sporty stuff when i can't do anything. my friend wants to book a holiday with me but i don't want to say yes, even tho i want to go. i'm scared i'll be ill and won't be able to go, so i'd rather just not book it. i don't want to ruin my friend's holiday if i'm too sick to do everything she wants to do.
anywayy that's my little pity rant if u read all of that here's your prize:

I'm so sorry to hear you're not well, sending you love x

guess who had a little mental breakdown at school? this galll
my cs teacher is pressuring me to get my project work done on time and i'm struggling sm. i've been trying to get my personal statement done which is due on the same day (this friday) and i'm just feeling overwhelmed. thankfully my school nurse and deputy head of my year helped me so much and said they would speak to all of my teachers about being a bit more lenient with deadlines for me. i'm honestly just so tired and i just really needed someone to be understanding, which they both were. so grateful!!
alsoo i went through the latest version of my ps with my oxbridge mentor and she said she really liked it! she helped me reword a couple of things but i think i'm pretty much ready to submit it now!

guess who had a little mental breakdown at school? this galll
my cs teacher is pressuring me to get my project work done on time and i'm struggling sm. i've been trying to get my personal statement done which is due on the same day (this friday) and i'm just feeling overwhelmed. thankfully my school nurse and deputy head of my year helped me so much and said they would speak to all of my teachers about being a bit more lenient with deadlines for me. i'm honestly just so tired and i just really needed someone to be understanding, which they both were. so grateful!!
alsoo i went through the latest version of my ps with my oxbridge mentor and she said she really liked it! she helped me reword a couple of things but i think i'm pretty much ready to submit it now!

I'm glad they were able to fix the deadlines a bit! It is too stressful a time rn for early applicants

Sorry to hear deadlines are causing you stress. It's nice how the deputy head and school nurse could help you out. Well done on your personal statement as well Best of luck with everything